I stole Carolyn's survey
The thing i hate about surveys is that they always try to make you choose one. well im not choosin ONE of anything. im writin about anything that comes to mind with these questions so THERE! im SOOO rebellious ;)
1. What is the one thing that makes you feel the most loved?
One thing would be when people stand up for me. I am usually great at standing up for myself but one person i never stand up to is my sister...she can be pretty harsh at times. and i guess its a sister thing but i never say anything back to her for whatever reason. i love when someone stands up for me to her...it means a lot to me. Also, I always feel loved when im working at the hardware store. they do so much for me, and treat me like gold there. They always tell me such positive things and truly believe in me. they make me feel that im unique and talented, and not just another person. theyve never made me feel like i can be replaced. Feeling memorable and irreplaceable is probably the ONE thing that makes me feel most loved.
2. What scent when smelled brings you back most vividly to your childhood? Was it a good memory?
Theres this one scent...its mostly vanilla, but its hard to describe because there are a lot of different vanilla-y scents. Currently my brother has this vanilla scent all over his room via car air fresheners. This scent for some reason reminds me of strawberry shortcake (the tv show) and my little ponies. It reminds me of playing these things with my sister when we were like 3 yrs old and living in woodgate. which reminds me of playing in the woods, running around and my mom brushing my hair at night in front of the woodstove. all wonderful memories. also, the smell of hot pavement always reminds me of my first time at disneyworld, because of the huge ass parkinglots. always smelled like HOT pavement. go figure ;) and of course disney is ALWAYS a great memory.
3. What was your most favorite childhood fantasy growing up?
Well here's where they could say i should be locked up, but my favorite fantasies always involved ghosts, unsolved mysteries and even people breaking into our house and trying to kill us (us being heather, amanda and i). whenever we got left home alone, we'd build big forts with the furniture cushions and blankets, and we'd tell ghost stories. then we'd get ourselves all freaked out and every little noise from the basement or upstairs would freak us out. it was funny how worked up we'd get ourselves over nothing. im a freak..i like being scared. especially if its being scared of nothing.
4. Who was the one person who has hurt you the most throughout your life consistently?
I dont really have a specific person for this question--its truly hard to say. I'd first and foremost be likely to say myself. I've always been allowed to make my own mistakes and i've consistantly made them lol...and i dont think id change the fact that i was able to do that, but there are a lot of things id change about my past and my choices if i had the chance. When i think of being hurt, though, i think mostly of ex boyfriends -- two specifically. i was crushed when ted broke up with me but i eventually got over it just fine. Then of course there was the following relationship that took my very being away from me. its been a rough road to get back on track but im still goin in the right direction...i think. idk. i try not to think about this ya know?
5. What is the one thing that you are most ashamed of?
Im often ashamed of myself for being nice to people's faces but not really caring for them when they're not around. Only do this to a couple people and they arent anyone major in my life but they are just the kind that are always trying to knock you down a peg, but around enough so that you feel you should just keep the peace. I hate that i have acted like a typical chick in that way. ive always hated the gossipy/backstabbing ways of women and of course i am a woman so i do it too sometimes. very embarassing. There's probably quite a bit more i could insert here but right now im just too run down to want to think of it. maybe ill add more later. who knows.
1. What is the one thing that makes you feel the most loved?
One thing would be when people stand up for me. I am usually great at standing up for myself but one person i never stand up to is my sister...she can be pretty harsh at times. and i guess its a sister thing but i never say anything back to her for whatever reason. i love when someone stands up for me to her...it means a lot to me. Also, I always feel loved when im working at the hardware store. they do so much for me, and treat me like gold there. They always tell me such positive things and truly believe in me. they make me feel that im unique and talented, and not just another person. theyve never made me feel like i can be replaced. Feeling memorable and irreplaceable is probably the ONE thing that makes me feel most loved.
2. What scent when smelled brings you back most vividly to your childhood? Was it a good memory?
Theres this one scent...its mostly vanilla, but its hard to describe because there are a lot of different vanilla-y scents. Currently my brother has this vanilla scent all over his room via car air fresheners. This scent for some reason reminds me of strawberry shortcake (the tv show) and my little ponies. It reminds me of playing these things with my sister when we were like 3 yrs old and living in woodgate. which reminds me of playing in the woods, running around and my mom brushing my hair at night in front of the woodstove. all wonderful memories. also, the smell of hot pavement always reminds me of my first time at disneyworld, because of the huge ass parkinglots. always smelled like HOT pavement. go figure ;) and of course disney is ALWAYS a great memory.
3. What was your most favorite childhood fantasy growing up?
Well here's where they could say i should be locked up, but my favorite fantasies always involved ghosts, unsolved mysteries and even people breaking into our house and trying to kill us (us being heather, amanda and i). whenever we got left home alone, we'd build big forts with the furniture cushions and blankets, and we'd tell ghost stories. then we'd get ourselves all freaked out and every little noise from the basement or upstairs would freak us out. it was funny how worked up we'd get ourselves over nothing. im a freak..i like being scared. especially if its being scared of nothing.
4. Who was the one person who has hurt you the most throughout your life consistently?
I dont really have a specific person for this question--its truly hard to say. I'd first and foremost be likely to say myself. I've always been allowed to make my own mistakes and i've consistantly made them lol...and i dont think id change the fact that i was able to do that, but there are a lot of things id change about my past and my choices if i had the chance. When i think of being hurt, though, i think mostly of ex boyfriends -- two specifically. i was crushed when ted broke up with me but i eventually got over it just fine. Then of course there was the following relationship that took my very being away from me. its been a rough road to get back on track but im still goin in the right direction...i think. idk. i try not to think about this ya know?
5. What is the one thing that you are most ashamed of?
Im often ashamed of myself for being nice to people's faces but not really caring for them when they're not around. Only do this to a couple people and they arent anyone major in my life but they are just the kind that are always trying to knock you down a peg, but around enough so that you feel you should just keep the peace. I hate that i have acted like a typical chick in that way. ive always hated the gossipy/backstabbing ways of women and of course i am a woman so i do it too sometimes. very embarassing. There's probably quite a bit more i could insert here but right now im just too run down to want to think of it. maybe ill add more later. who knows.