kinda embarassed
People who know me would probably tell you that i have no dreams. i work at a hardware store where i grew up. ive graduated from college. im not quite sure what im going to do with my life, and im not all that worried about it either. I feel ill be happy in life as long as i have people surrounding me that i care about, and can afford some sort of living. and by living, i mean apartment, heat, food and car. thats all i need. im a simple girl.
however, i do have dreams. maybe ill never make them real, but still have them.
i have a bit of a problem, it seems. i sing. i love music. music moves me. it gives me chills. this sounds so corny and pathetic but its true. ive always loved music. the problem is that it distracts me from ...how do i say this...people? my relations with others? what happens is, when i hear a song and im with people...and they are talking, i totally block them out to listen to the music. i sing the music, whether in my head, or outloud...i feel like an asshole! i cant help it though. i know what my problem is...
i want to perform. i want to sing in front of people. i want to be in plays, in the theater, on broadway. maybe even opera. this sounds so stupid to me. i dont know why, but i feel its just rediculous to even think of such things for my future. thats why i havnt done it.
but thats it...thats my dream. i want to take voice lessons. i want to be incredible, and i want to sing and act on stage. I know this isnt THAT farfetched...i could probably satisfy this need to be on stage singing by just joining local theater groups. but i dont want to do random weird plays. i want to do well known musicals. Grease, Moulin Rouge, Phantom of the Opera, the Sound of Music....i cant get enough of musicals.
but i dont feel good enough. i need a lot of work....though i do think i have potential to be something great on stage. Ive been in plays before, but i was young and scared. im still scared, but i think i can push myself and train. Im by nature a very dramatic person and i think i need to get it out somewhere.
so there you have it. i do indeed have a "dream". it may be really stupid, but i cant stop thinking of it ever. ok?
so in "conclusion"...if i tend to stare off into space, and start singing while youre trying to talk to me, please dont take it personally. its not that what you have to say isnt important, but i seriously have a problem. im addicted to music. i cant help it. i seriously cant. im so sorry if it affects my relationships with my friends. but idk how to fix it.
however, i do have dreams. maybe ill never make them real, but still have them.
i have a bit of a problem, it seems. i sing. i love music. music moves me. it gives me chills. this sounds so corny and pathetic but its true. ive always loved music. the problem is that it distracts me from ...how do i say this...people? my relations with others? what happens is, when i hear a song and im with people...and they are talking, i totally block them out to listen to the music. i sing the music, whether in my head, or outloud...i feel like an asshole! i cant help it though. i know what my problem is...
i want to perform. i want to sing in front of people. i want to be in plays, in the theater, on broadway. maybe even opera. this sounds so stupid to me. i dont know why, but i feel its just rediculous to even think of such things for my future. thats why i havnt done it.
but thats it...thats my dream. i want to take voice lessons. i want to be incredible, and i want to sing and act on stage. I know this isnt THAT farfetched...i could probably satisfy this need to be on stage singing by just joining local theater groups. but i dont want to do random weird plays. i want to do well known musicals. Grease, Moulin Rouge, Phantom of the Opera, the Sound of Music....i cant get enough of musicals.
but i dont feel good enough. i need a lot of work....though i do think i have potential to be something great on stage. Ive been in plays before, but i was young and scared. im still scared, but i think i can push myself and train. Im by nature a very dramatic person and i think i need to get it out somewhere.
so there you have it. i do indeed have a "dream". it may be really stupid, but i cant stop thinking of it ever. ok?
so in "conclusion"...if i tend to stare off into space, and start singing while youre trying to talk to me, please dont take it personally. its not that what you have to say isnt important, but i seriously have a problem. im addicted to music. i cant help it. i seriously cant. im so sorry if it affects my relationships with my friends. but idk how to fix it.