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i dont think ive ever actually felt that much hate being spewed at me.
and especially from someone i love more than anything and who's opinion i hold above all others.
all i have to say is... oh well.
ive decided that im rather content with this
the reason being i got broken up with by some monster
not the nick schwartz i love so much
i dont know that kid
and the things he said to me dont really mean anything to me
i already grieved over losing nick the day he left for france
and the first 5 days he was gone
i pretended he was dead for some reason
so im not at all in shock right now
sadly enough
the situation just kinda sucks ya kno?
5 months of loving someone and theyre gone for 7 days and they want you dead
its just kinda ridiculous
and in the long run i hope one monster wont regret what he became
nicholas oliver schwartz wouldnt even have it in him to say those horrible things to anyone
let alone me
listen
it doesnt matter
im completely content knowing that im alone
the person he has become is not something i ever want to deal with
so i have no need to run on back to him
now if he was the nick that i loved before
the one that was considerate
and had a heart of some sort
came back around
then i might be screwed
but at this point no1 will let me go back to him
im pretty positive
but hey i kept going back to dave
ew.
Okay, My Formal Agenda
LAST NIGHT:
- "broken up with blunt"
-getting drunk off my ass
TODAY:
-bronxville chris coming to pville
-or hanging out with chapp simon
TONIGHT:
-hanging out with shay
-or hanging out with chapp simon
TOMORROW:
-drivers ed all day i think?
TOMORROW NIGHT:
-CROTON for the party of the yearrrrrrr
with kayla shay and georgie
others welcome to come
smoking mad blunts & getting mad drunk
oh plus insert random guys here. lolz.
=)
okay thats all for now.
im fine. i really am.
dont worry about me.
ive gone through worse..
and especially from someone i love more than anything and who's opinion i hold above all others.
all i have to say is... oh well.
ive decided that im rather content with this
the reason being i got broken up with by some monster
not the nick schwartz i love so much
i dont know that kid
and the things he said to me dont really mean anything to me
i already grieved over losing nick the day he left for france
and the first 5 days he was gone
i pretended he was dead for some reason
so im not at all in shock right now
sadly enough
the situation just kinda sucks ya kno?
5 months of loving someone and theyre gone for 7 days and they want you dead
its just kinda ridiculous
and in the long run i hope one monster wont regret what he became
nicholas oliver schwartz wouldnt even have it in him to say those horrible things to anyone
let alone me
listen
it doesnt matter
im completely content knowing that im alone
the person he has become is not something i ever want to deal with
so i have no need to run on back to him
now if he was the nick that i loved before
the one that was considerate
and had a heart of some sort
came back around
then i might be screwed
but at this point no1 will let me go back to him
im pretty positive
but hey i kept going back to dave
ew.
Okay, My Formal Agenda
LAST NIGHT:
- "broken up with blunt"
-getting drunk off my ass
TODAY:
-bronxville chris coming to pville
-or hanging out with chapp simon
TONIGHT:
-hanging out with shay
-or hanging out with chapp simon
TOMORROW:
-drivers ed all day i think?
TOMORROW NIGHT:
-CROTON for the party of the yearrrrrrr
with kayla shay and georgie
others welcome to come
smoking mad blunts & getting mad drunk
oh plus insert random guys here. lolz.
=)
okay thats all for now.
im fine. i really am.
dont worry about me.
ive gone through worse..