let it out, let it out, don't get caught up in yourself
yea its a month.. i cant believe it..
i want to apologize to chris first off because of the way i've been latley i've been so fucked up and crazy and just felt like ive reached my edge until like today which made me rethink of everything thats been going on.. and i know i shouldn't be holding grudges especially after everything thats happened but honestly everything has pretty much hit rock bottom and i have reached the point where i just let all my anger out from chris, my parents, just everything and i've calmed down since i have let out all my anger. it's been tough latley reall tough and just everything that has been going on has kinda gotten my mind of thinking of chris all the time, i mean obviously i think of him every single day it's just i feel so defeated. nothing seems to be getting better.. at all. i'm also disappointed in myself for everything thats been going on. like how could i let everything i just learned from this slip away from my mind for a bit and just be total and complete idiot? i think it's because i can't do it anymore, the anger that i have built up inside me just decided to snap and i expected more from myself to tell you the truth. but i can't change the past can i? eventually in time i will talk to her again i just need my time to put my head on straight and really fix myself up because i've been an emotional wreck latley and i need to calm down alot.
Chris baby i miss you. alot and this past week i needed you there to make me smile, and just help me through this. i cant describe how much i miss you. like everyday i come home and look at my corkboard full of pictures of you. and just miss you more and moree. i can't even begin to describe. just seeing your face and all those funny pictures makes me feel like you're still here. you were an amazing person and i hope i get to see your face again, and get to hear your laugh, and just be in the presence of you someday <3 i love you, may angels lead you in.
i want to apologize to chris first off because of the way i've been latley i've been so fucked up and crazy and just felt like ive reached my edge until like today which made me rethink of everything thats been going on.. and i know i shouldn't be holding grudges especially after everything thats happened but honestly everything has pretty much hit rock bottom and i have reached the point where i just let all my anger out from chris, my parents, just everything and i've calmed down since i have let out all my anger. it's been tough latley reall tough and just everything that has been going on has kinda gotten my mind of thinking of chris all the time, i mean obviously i think of him every single day it's just i feel so defeated. nothing seems to be getting better.. at all. i'm also disappointed in myself for everything thats been going on. like how could i let everything i just learned from this slip away from my mind for a bit and just be total and complete idiot? i think it's because i can't do it anymore, the anger that i have built up inside me just decided to snap and i expected more from myself to tell you the truth. but i can't change the past can i? eventually in time i will talk to her again i just need my time to put my head on straight and really fix myself up because i've been an emotional wreck latley and i need to calm down alot.
Chris baby i miss you. alot and this past week i needed you there to make me smile, and just help me through this. i cant describe how much i miss you. like everyday i come home and look at my corkboard full of pictures of you. and just miss you more and moree. i can't even begin to describe. just seeing your face and all those funny pictures makes me feel like you're still here. you were an amazing person and i hope i get to see your face again, and get to hear your laugh, and just be in the presence of you someday <3 i love you, may angels lead you in.