Have I made a huge mistake?
As I was reading a post by belenen today about characters in zir life I was struck by how ze really got to the heart of who I am in a way I could not have as sufficiently done. I read the part about me and smiled and moved on, wanting to read about the other characters in zir life. Some of them I knew personally, some from stories and some not at all. A short while later I went back, wanting to share with a friend how spot on and soul shockingly happy making the post made me... I started sobbing uncontrollably. I still haven't figured out the full meaning of those tears. But here is what I know right now. I am lonely, I am so heartbreakingly lonely here right now. I miss having a community, even though I neglected it. I miss having more than just one person that really understands who I am. I feel like leaving Atlanta was what I needed to do but how am I going to get that back? I just want my friends... I don't know what to do to fix this sad. I don't feel like such a strong person right now.