heart cooks brain
so.
it is early may. there are five weeks of classes left -- two of those are ap weeks and thus practically non-existent. half of another one i will be spending in ohio, because i'm spoiled like that, and because i feel like i can afford it, even though i'll be broke all summer.
i got into college and i think i want to go kind of a lot.
the weather is pretty.
all these things make uber-senioritis absolutely unavoidable. but i'm not allowed to have it because a) aps still might matter somewhat; b) i have to do a load of other non-school things in order to make money and thrive in a capitalist society; c) i do still have to pass everything.
but guess what?!?!?! (beginning of adhd conversation): i'm going to europe on july 6th!!!!!!... i'm taking a trip to spain!!!! i'm going to live in southern california for four years!!!!!
it's very hard to focus on writing a speech about why the metric system is useful.
or to think about learning the assumptions for the 34596873456 kinds of hypothesis tests.
or to do anything else except watch movies and roam the town on weeknights.
today i woke up at noon, and tried to make all sorts of discomforts disappear. while pretending to edit lexiles, i watched dreamgirls, and then thought for a while about the concept of responsibility. i then became very motivated and rushed through a practice calc test that made me feel good about myself -- so good, in fact, that i decided nothing else mattered and, while pretending to edit lexiles, i engaged in a horizon-broadening monty python marathon.
i know i should work work work now, because tomorrow is so full of everything that i won't have time to do anything. but things are swimming out of my mind very fast and i can't focus on anything that doesn't contain numbers.
while pretending to edit lexiles, i think i will take a trip to campus.
this has been by far one of the most useless livejournal entries i have posted, ever, -- which is really something.
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it is early may. there are five weeks of classes left -- two of those are ap weeks and thus practically non-existent. half of another one i will be spending in ohio, because i'm spoiled like that, and because i feel like i can afford it, even though i'll be broke all summer.
i got into college and i think i want to go kind of a lot.
the weather is pretty.
all these things make uber-senioritis absolutely unavoidable. but i'm not allowed to have it because a) aps still might matter somewhat; b) i have to do a load of other non-school things in order to make money and thrive in a capitalist society; c) i do still have to pass everything.
but guess what?!?!?! (beginning of adhd conversation): i'm going to europe on july 6th!!!!!!... i'm taking a trip to spain!!!! i'm going to live in southern california for four years!!!!!
it's very hard to focus on writing a speech about why the metric system is useful.
or to think about learning the assumptions for the 34596873456 kinds of hypothesis tests.
or to do anything else except watch movies and roam the town on weeknights.
today i woke up at noon, and tried to make all sorts of discomforts disappear. while pretending to edit lexiles, i watched dreamgirls, and then thought for a while about the concept of responsibility. i then became very motivated and rushed through a practice calc test that made me feel good about myself -- so good, in fact, that i decided nothing else mattered and, while pretending to edit lexiles, i engaged in a horizon-broadening monty python marathon.
i know i should work work work now, because tomorrow is so full of everything that i won't have time to do anything. but things are swimming out of my mind very fast and i can't focus on anything that doesn't contain numbers.
while pretending to edit lexiles, i think i will take a trip to campus.
this has been by far one of the most useless livejournal entries i have posted, ever, -- which is really something.
<3 afgoerhtlskjdfgsldfkjgsdlfkgjn ana