Things are starting to pick up
Slowly! But my life is starting to get a move on, which I am beyond excited about. Today, I went to this pep session thing at my college, there was only a few people there but I was one of the first ones. This girl ended up coming up to me and talking to me, she just moved here from Texas and we have a lot in common. I made a new friend whose going to the same school as me! We got each others numbers, which is good, I'm excited that I'm finally meeting new people. I've been so isolated from meeting new people since becoming home schooled, that I'm ready to just get out there and meet people. Although, I have the tendency to be extremely shy and quiet around new people, and when there's a lot of people around I become anxious, paranoid, nervous, etc... So, I'm going to need to get used to being around people again... That's probably the only thing I'm really scared about right now.
I actually did really well on my placement test! Well, on the English part that is, the math part didn't go so great, but I did decent and not horrible. So, I'm not really worried about being placed in a lower math class. I have a meeting with some other students and counselors on Monday, and the counselors are going to talk one on one with the students, so I'm excited for that. I get to find out what classes I should take based on my placement test scores, and I get to register and pick classes... If there are any left this semester that is. I also have to meet with a transfer counselor this week sometime to see which program I should go into since I'm planning on transferring to a four-year college after a year or two. Ah, stressful... But so exciting!
Anyways, besides the college thing, things are good. I got in a fight with that boy yesterday, he said he can't give me what I want because his inability to express any emotions besides anger and depression... Which overall confused me because I don't even know what I want. Well, I guess I do... I want a relationship, love, comfort, security... What every girl wants. But he's the one who asked me if I eventually wanted a relationship because he really likes me and what not. I don't know, I'm not bothered as much as I normally would be by it, were hanging out tomorrow and all I really care about is having him in my life, whether it's relationship wise, friend wise, or friend with benefits, or together wise... Whatever you want to call it. I actually have extremely strong feelings for this guy, totally unlike me to ever feel anything this deep for anyone... But, I do and it scares me quite some bit... I'm just not holding back anymore, I guess I want to take what I can while it's still there, ya know?
Hm, what else? I'm going to Florida on the 30th, so I'm super excited to go to the beach and get tan and just relax! I need to restrict from now to then like hell... I want to be so tiny for it, I just ordered a new bathing suit from Victoria Secret, so I have to look good in it! Not that I want to impress anyone because I won't know anyone, but because I want to feel comfortable and pretty and sexy while I'm on the beach... and not feel like a beached whale. -__- Haha, I'll make skinny happen! I will.
Xoxo
I actually did really well on my placement test! Well, on the English part that is, the math part didn't go so great, but I did decent and not horrible. So, I'm not really worried about being placed in a lower math class. I have a meeting with some other students and counselors on Monday, and the counselors are going to talk one on one with the students, so I'm excited for that. I get to find out what classes I should take based on my placement test scores, and I get to register and pick classes... If there are any left this semester that is. I also have to meet with a transfer counselor this week sometime to see which program I should go into since I'm planning on transferring to a four-year college after a year or two. Ah, stressful... But so exciting!
Anyways, besides the college thing, things are good. I got in a fight with that boy yesterday, he said he can't give me what I want because his inability to express any emotions besides anger and depression... Which overall confused me because I don't even know what I want. Well, I guess I do... I want a relationship, love, comfort, security... What every girl wants. But he's the one who asked me if I eventually wanted a relationship because he really likes me and what not. I don't know, I'm not bothered as much as I normally would be by it, were hanging out tomorrow and all I really care about is having him in my life, whether it's relationship wise, friend wise, or friend with benefits, or together wise... Whatever you want to call it. I actually have extremely strong feelings for this guy, totally unlike me to ever feel anything this deep for anyone... But, I do and it scares me quite some bit... I'm just not holding back anymore, I guess I want to take what I can while it's still there, ya know?
Hm, what else? I'm going to Florida on the 30th, so I'm super excited to go to the beach and get tan and just relax! I need to restrict from now to then like hell... I want to be so tiny for it, I just ordered a new bathing suit from Victoria Secret, so I have to look good in it! Not that I want to impress anyone because I won't know anyone, but because I want to feel comfortable and pretty and sexy while I'm on the beach... and not feel like a beached whale. -__- Haha, I'll make skinny happen! I will.
Xoxo