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When an event occurs that is completely unexpected, how are you supposed to react?
All I can say it I am trying to keep myself level headed.
When you have a person in your life, that means the world to you, ends up pushing you away. How are you supposed to feel?
This is extremely hard for me to grasp. She was my sister, my other half, anything you could ask for in a friendship....we had. What happened? All morning/night I have been battling with how to respond. How to absorb it. How to protect myself with out hurting her.
I would never do anything to hurt her. I would never wish negativity in her life. I hope all goes well.
If that's what she wants.....a new life.....with. out. me.
Then all I can do is walk away and let that be. I don't push anymore. I just let things go with the flow.
Josh, recently, has shown me a side of a person that I want to be. He would respond in a situation like this such as, "If you can't fix it don't worry. Be confident, if it's out of your hands and there is nothing possibly accomplishable...then fuck it."
Granted I have a brain fart...and words aren't coming to me all that easily today. But you get the point.
I love her more than she knows. But if she doesn't want me around. I know how to say good bye.
We shall see what happens......
All I can say it I am trying to keep myself level headed.
When you have a person in your life, that means the world to you, ends up pushing you away. How are you supposed to feel?
This is extremely hard for me to grasp. She was my sister, my other half, anything you could ask for in a friendship....we had. What happened? All morning/night I have been battling with how to respond. How to absorb it. How to protect myself with out hurting her.
I would never do anything to hurt her. I would never wish negativity in her life. I hope all goes well.
If that's what she wants.....a new life.....with. out. me.
Then all I can do is walk away and let that be. I don't push anymore. I just let things go with the flow.
Josh, recently, has shown me a side of a person that I want to be. He would respond in a situation like this such as, "If you can't fix it don't worry. Be confident, if it's out of your hands and there is nothing possibly accomplishable...then fuck it."
Granted I have a brain fart...and words aren't coming to me all that easily today. But you get the point.
I love her more than she knows. But if she doesn't want me around. I know how to say good bye.
We shall see what happens......