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just got home from south carolina. i dont even know what to say. its amazing. its perfect. ive never been in the presence of someone and like known for a stone cold fact that shit, this is it. this is the one i wanna be with. forever. this is everything ive been looking for. right here the whole time. my best friend. i dont know where life is going to take either of us, but i do know for sure i hope it brings us back together somewhere down the line. shit, i hope it never takes us apart. i hate being far away. i hate saying goodbye. its taking an emotional toll on me not knowing the next time we are going to see eachother. i dont know how im supposed to be happy here when my heart is somewhere else. but it makes me happy just to know i have him there waiting for me. ive never felt like this before. that my search is completely over, that i dont need to play games anymore. this is so serious that i dont know if i can handle it, or that either of us can. thats why we arent gonna be in a relationship now so we can preserve it for some time later in life when we are older and ready and more mature to make it work. and we are on the same page about everything. but its like magic. i am completely in love with him. i cant imagine anything better, any one better. he remembers everything i say, knows all my favorite things. he goes out of his way for me, he listens to me, he wants to be with me, he wants to take care of me even tho we both know i dont need to be taken care of. he wants to marry me. he opens doors for me, hes got a good future and a level head on his shoulders. hes not just another guy. hes not in it for the wrong reasons. he doesnt use me or take advantage of me. he genuinely cares. he makes me laugh, he likes the same things i do, he makes me so happy. it feels so right. this sounds like such mushy crap but shitttt like what have i gotten into? note to future self reading this: dont fuck it up and ruin it. dont let this one get away.
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