It's been a while.
It's been a while since I have wrote in here and a lot of shit has happened since then. I have made a decision about the friends thing. I have thought about cutting off ties with alot of people. Well while I was up there I made my decision. I am cutting off ties with almost all of my friends. For one reason I am going back to school. Another I am having a shit load of family problems. And finally because I just dont need the drama people bring. Starting off with the first, I have decided to go back to school. I am trying to get in at WSU or USU. I wont go un-till Spring, but thats ok. Now with the family problems lets see where do I begin? First my mom is having a conniption fit about me staying at my dads for as long as I did. Then my older sister gets her door busted in and had guns held to hers and her boyfriends head. So in that happening she might get her baby taken from her. But when that happend it was at two in the morning. We were all sleeping and the phone rang. So we had my nephew from like 2:30 a.m. till 10 a.m. Which let me tell you what that was not fun at all. He didnt sleep and cried most of the night. So that was that. She finally got out of jail and came and got him. The the rest of the day was a blur but sucked still cause I only had maybe 3 hours of sleep. Well I think she should leave him but it's not up to me. So that happens and then my mom starts bitching at me when I talk to her on the phone. What a fucking life. With the friends issue, I dont need the drama they bring in my life, want me to fix, and make better. Sorry I'm not always capable of doing that. I need to first fix my family problems and my own problems before I can have friends. But I come home and one person that I use to be friends with I guess her dad killed himself and I didnt know about it because I had to much shit of my own to deal with at the time. I do feel bad because that happened to her but I am not going to call her, go over to her house, or anything because I know there would be tension with me and her. And right now she doesnt need that because she is having enough problems of her own. But I do extend my regards to her and her family. But one of my old friends (mesha)who is bothering me expects me to be a friend to her when she never really was for me. I mean when I was going through hell with my family. Was she anywhereto be found? No!!!!! But she expects me to be friends with when her and her boyfriend are having problems. Which he is lying about me, but you know what thats ok cause I really dont care anymore. Life's a bitch but you have to deal with it sometimes. So I cut off ties with her. I just need to do something for myself before I can for anyone else. Lates.