no more Supernova!
After all the preparation, Supernova camp was finally over! Cant say i was happy bout the results since it din reach my expectation. My facs still doesnt see the lesson they have to learn from this camp. But at least they learn something so the $5k is worth it.
In the last 4 days, i slept for 10 hours which is better than last year. *laughs* A lot of mixed feelings bout this camp but still glad that it made me understand the ppl around me better. And of coz, it made me have a clearer pic of how they see me too. Seems like most of them are scared of me. *wahaha*
When i get back home, i saw the rejection letter from NCSS. I started to msg Cindy and friends. I rem sending a smiley face too and they were panic. In the end, i have to console and assure them i'm alright. *laughs* So right now, i have no idea wat i wanna do. Cindy told me to be happy and i start to wonder wat makes me happy. I noe wat i dun wan but i never have a "want" in my life. Even if i have wat i wan, will i be happy? I noe i will be satisfied but happy? It seems such a big question mark to me now...
Need to start looking for a job but no idea in which area. All i noe is i wont wanna return to sch. Perhaps to some hotel, event company, related. Who really noes? Thought of becoming a missionary and go to Cambodia to fulfill my dreams too. Too many options but none is the one that i felt drawn to. Dear sisters, pls help me pray over this too.
In the last 4 days, i slept for 10 hours which is better than last year. *laughs* A lot of mixed feelings bout this camp but still glad that it made me understand the ppl around me better. And of coz, it made me have a clearer pic of how they see me too. Seems like most of them are scared of me. *wahaha*
When i get back home, i saw the rejection letter from NCSS. I started to msg Cindy and friends. I rem sending a smiley face too and they were panic. In the end, i have to console and assure them i'm alright. *laughs* So right now, i have no idea wat i wanna do. Cindy told me to be happy and i start to wonder wat makes me happy. I noe wat i dun wan but i never have a "want" in my life. Even if i have wat i wan, will i be happy? I noe i will be satisfied but happy? It seems such a big question mark to me now...
Need to start looking for a job but no idea in which area. All i noe is i wont wanna return to sch. Perhaps to some hotel, event company, related. Who really noes? Thought of becoming a missionary and go to Cambodia to fulfill my dreams too. Too many options but none is the one that i felt drawn to. Dear sisters, pls help me pray over this too.