what now?
When we last left our evil vilian (me) he was kicking back getting accused of cheating on his woman while trying to be Mr.Right.
Today I went car shopping with my woman. I did not want to take her because she agrees with salesmen, and gets pissy at me when she dosn't get your way. First we stopped off at my parents to get the pink slip for one of my other vehicles that I wanted to trade off. They had one request that I was more then happy to agree to, that if I buy a new car I stop and show it to them. So off we went to the car lots. At the fist car lot she found a car she liked, I being the resonable person I am figured it best not to only shop at one place so I refused to buy it right then...round one. After a fight I refused to lose we headed off to the different car lots scoping out more cars. None of the cars were as nice as the first one, a Dodge Avenger that I did end up buying....round two. I then headed to my parents house as requested earlier in the day...round three¿? Thats right, she starts yelling at me for wanting to show the car to my parents. My family is far from the closest family around, so when they ask me speicificaly to do something, I usually will do it without much thought (they ask me to do something like this once a year at the most)....round three¿?¿ Yes, that is correct, she starts yelling at me about how I try to please my family (that I only see 4 times a year at the most) to much. I finally got so mad I broke one of my codes, I looked at her and started yelling "You stupid bitch!!" After about 3 mins of yelling that I really needed to get out, I realized I had used the B word..oops. I felt bad, but I am so tired of trying to do nice things for people only to get walked on in the process, and she had her fair share of jabs as well. Half way home she started to try to make up with me..I remained silent the entire way. We pulled into the driveway, she asked if I was done fighting, I looked straight at her and said "I sure as hell am." I then went and got into my CRX and squeeled the tires half way down the block. I went to my bar and started double fisting shots. I am now wasted (sorry for typos and bad editing, cannot usually get this drunk). I then came home and she started back in on me, she is currently yelling at me as I type this. This is currently the only thing that keeps me from blowing up at her..must keep typing. "Why am I so mad at you? No why are you such a bitch is the true question at hand."
Someday I will find someone who appreciates the finer things in life without bitching. Until then, I also enjoy writing poetry, it is sometimes dark, but it comes from my heart and soul, enjoy.
Waking from a restless sleep
I lay here and try to calm my weep
Tossing turning nothing works
In my mind the voice it lurks
"All the pain that you have lead"
"Why my boy are you not dead?"
"I may only be just in your head"
"But listen to what I have said"
I am you and you are me
Why can I not just let me be
"Death it comes once to us all"
"First the strike and then the fall"
Why is my mind in this darkend slum
Does this mean my time has come
Is this the strike before the end
Or is this just a minor bend
In this the darkness no lights shine
"Your heart and soul are now mine"
The darkness is all wet and cold
Smelling of decay and mold
"I own all living in its walls"
"Knowing that no light will fall"
Into this darkness you must not come
If you do your heart will numb
The darkness is where I want to be
But you young heart, you should flee
If you don't your heart will die
Remember child, I never lie
"My darkness will soon lull your mind"
"Your heart will soon be hard to find"
"Raping you of heart and soul"
"As my hells bells all start to toll"
Adair316
Today I went car shopping with my woman. I did not want to take her because she agrees with salesmen, and gets pissy at me when she dosn't get your way. First we stopped off at my parents to get the pink slip for one of my other vehicles that I wanted to trade off. They had one request that I was more then happy to agree to, that if I buy a new car I stop and show it to them. So off we went to the car lots. At the fist car lot she found a car she liked, I being the resonable person I am figured it best not to only shop at one place so I refused to buy it right then...round one. After a fight I refused to lose we headed off to the different car lots scoping out more cars. None of the cars were as nice as the first one, a Dodge Avenger that I did end up buying....round two. I then headed to my parents house as requested earlier in the day...round three¿? Thats right, she starts yelling at me for wanting to show the car to my parents. My family is far from the closest family around, so when they ask me speicificaly to do something, I usually will do it without much thought (they ask me to do something like this once a year at the most)....round three¿?¿ Yes, that is correct, she starts yelling at me about how I try to please my family (that I only see 4 times a year at the most) to much. I finally got so mad I broke one of my codes, I looked at her and started yelling "You stupid bitch!!" After about 3 mins of yelling that I really needed to get out, I realized I had used the B word..oops. I felt bad, but I am so tired of trying to do nice things for people only to get walked on in the process, and she had her fair share of jabs as well. Half way home she started to try to make up with me..I remained silent the entire way. We pulled into the driveway, she asked if I was done fighting, I looked straight at her and said "I sure as hell am." I then went and got into my CRX and squeeled the tires half way down the block. I went to my bar and started double fisting shots. I am now wasted (sorry for typos and bad editing, cannot usually get this drunk). I then came home and she started back in on me, she is currently yelling at me as I type this. This is currently the only thing that keeps me from blowing up at her..must keep typing. "Why am I so mad at you? No why are you such a bitch is the true question at hand."
Someday I will find someone who appreciates the finer things in life without bitching. Until then, I also enjoy writing poetry, it is sometimes dark, but it comes from my heart and soul, enjoy.
Waking from a restless sleep
I lay here and try to calm my weep
Tossing turning nothing works
In my mind the voice it lurks
"All the pain that you have lead"
"Why my boy are you not dead?"
"I may only be just in your head"
"But listen to what I have said"
I am you and you are me
Why can I not just let me be
"Death it comes once to us all"
"First the strike and then the fall"
Why is my mind in this darkend slum
Does this mean my time has come
Is this the strike before the end
Or is this just a minor bend
In this the darkness no lights shine
"Your heart and soul are now mine"
The darkness is all wet and cold
Smelling of decay and mold
"I own all living in its walls"
"Knowing that no light will fall"
Into this darkness you must not come
If you do your heart will numb
The darkness is where I want to be
But you young heart, you should flee
If you don't your heart will die
Remember child, I never lie
"My darkness will soon lull your mind"
"Your heart will soon be hard to find"
"Raping you of heart and soul"
"As my hells bells all start to toll"
Adair316