Hiyas
Hello,
This is the first time I have ever posted on any type of site like this. Sharing my feelings, what I did, what I am thinking, ect, ect is very far from one of my strong points.
First off I would like to thank my best and only true friend in the world. Nattycat, thank you for being there for me in tough times, fun times, and all the time, you mean the world to me babe, and thank you for setting this up for me at a hard time in my life so I have somewhere to go and vent. You are the person in the world who knows me better than any other one person probably ever will.
Well, now I guess we go to the journal part of it......
Today was not a fun day for me to say the least. My woman got drunk last night and accused me of sleeping around on her when I am trying my hardest to be "Mr.Right". I went to work today (I work at the worlds largest wood moulding plant as a floor manager) and my boss started in on what needed done for the day. Between personal life and work I am currently to the point of not caring and just wanting to look at him and say "well isn't that special, I am sure this is going to totally change someones life" as I roll my eyes. But that false sense of security always keeps me from actually doing it. Once again most of my day consists of putting on a false front, smile, and sickening happy attitude while daydreaming of cruising a customized chopper through the desert, surfing the net for choppers, and chatting on Everdark (the best mud on the net). After work, as usual, I went to my bar. I always sit at the bar, and usually drink pineapple and vodka, except on nights I am done caring, then you can find me double fisting shots. As I sat there I heard Mike (the bartender) use my new excuse for everything I do wrong, or get accused of, "I am a man, I have a penis"
I have heard many times in my life that things don't change unless you make them change. I just hope that some day I will look past my false sense of security and make things change. I know until I do, I will be unhappy with life and everything in it.
"Only two things are infinite in life, the universe, and the stupidity of man, the first one being questionable" Adair316
This is the first time I have ever posted on any type of site like this. Sharing my feelings, what I did, what I am thinking, ect, ect is very far from one of my strong points.
First off I would like to thank my best and only true friend in the world. Nattycat, thank you for being there for me in tough times, fun times, and all the time, you mean the world to me babe, and thank you for setting this up for me at a hard time in my life so I have somewhere to go and vent. You are the person in the world who knows me better than any other one person probably ever will.
Well, now I guess we go to the journal part of it......
Today was not a fun day for me to say the least. My woman got drunk last night and accused me of sleeping around on her when I am trying my hardest to be "Mr.Right". I went to work today (I work at the worlds largest wood moulding plant as a floor manager) and my boss started in on what needed done for the day. Between personal life and work I am currently to the point of not caring and just wanting to look at him and say "well isn't that special, I am sure this is going to totally change someones life" as I roll my eyes. But that false sense of security always keeps me from actually doing it. Once again most of my day consists of putting on a false front, smile, and sickening happy attitude while daydreaming of cruising a customized chopper through the desert, surfing the net for choppers, and chatting on Everdark (the best mud on the net). After work, as usual, I went to my bar. I always sit at the bar, and usually drink pineapple and vodka, except on nights I am done caring, then you can find me double fisting shots. As I sat there I heard Mike (the bartender) use my new excuse for everything I do wrong, or get accused of, "I am a man, I have a penis"
I have heard many times in my life that things don't change unless you make them change. I just hope that some day I will look past my false sense of security and make things change. I know until I do, I will be unhappy with life and everything in it.
"Only two things are infinite in life, the universe, and the stupidity of man, the first one being questionable" Adair316