So, I've been set free
My trainer gave me the 'let's just be friends' speech yesterday. I'm not quite sure what to feel, but mostly I feel dull and sad. We've been together for 11-12 years, for the most part doing lessons once a week (barring injuries). Longest relationship I've ever had. lol
She started by asking what my goals were, and I knew what was up. Really, though, I haven't shown in the last 3? years, and I don't anticipate wanting to do so in the future. I prefer to concentrate on the process. My main goal is to be in harmony with my horse - there's a story behind this involving a fat little man and his fat little horse I saw in Portugal, I need to find my journal so I can write it here.
She said that really I haven't been needing all that much direction, and that I'm generally able to tell when he's having an issue and how to fix it. From now on If I have a question, she would help me answer it, but in general she feels that she's not doing a whole lot.
She also pointed out that one way you know to stop trying to move up is when the horse starts getting odd injuries/injured more. And yes, he has had a shoulder issue the last few weeks that he would never have had before. And he's getting older(ish).
I noted that while he is a great guy, he's never been completely consistent in contact for large stretches of time. So, even if we did go to a show, we wouldn't do really well. (And then, we talked about 'push button' horses, and how it would be fun to ride in a show once, then it would get boring. lol)
Not that her reasons weren't true. Also, for her, she's entering a new stage in her life, and wants to do that fully.
She did say that she enjoyed our discussions, and wanted to continue that on occasion, which was good. I just hope that we manage to do that.
I told her that I would love to do levade. She didn't think he'd be able to do it easily, which disappointed me, but I'm not too surprised.
I mentioned that at some point I might want to get a horse I could do the high stuff with. Even then, though, probably not in a show situation. (High as in levade, piaffe, maybe courbette eek! lol)
She did promise to come see James occasionally, even if I'm not here. I was worried about that because he does like her, and we've had someone he liked abandon us before. She said she wouldn't do that to him (us).
Anyway. There ya go. I needed to get this out more than I needed to sleep. Almost came right home from choir and went to bed right after feeding because I'm tired and have a headache. But, I needed to update on the last day of Wrisomifu, and wanted to write this.
Night, ya'll.
She started by asking what my goals were, and I knew what was up. Really, though, I haven't shown in the last 3? years, and I don't anticipate wanting to do so in the future. I prefer to concentrate on the process. My main goal is to be in harmony with my horse - there's a story behind this involving a fat little man and his fat little horse I saw in Portugal, I need to find my journal so I can write it here.
She said that really I haven't been needing all that much direction, and that I'm generally able to tell when he's having an issue and how to fix it. From now on If I have a question, she would help me answer it, but in general she feels that she's not doing a whole lot.
She also pointed out that one way you know to stop trying to move up is when the horse starts getting odd injuries/injured more. And yes, he has had a shoulder issue the last few weeks that he would never have had before. And he's getting older(ish).
I noted that while he is a great guy, he's never been completely consistent in contact for large stretches of time. So, even if we did go to a show, we wouldn't do really well. (And then, we talked about 'push button' horses, and how it would be fun to ride in a show once, then it would get boring. lol)
Not that her reasons weren't true. Also, for her, she's entering a new stage in her life, and wants to do that fully.
She did say that she enjoyed our discussions, and wanted to continue that on occasion, which was good. I just hope that we manage to do that.
I told her that I would love to do levade. She didn't think he'd be able to do it easily, which disappointed me, but I'm not too surprised.
I mentioned that at some point I might want to get a horse I could do the high stuff with. Even then, though, probably not in a show situation. (High as in levade, piaffe, maybe courbette eek! lol)
She did promise to come see James occasionally, even if I'm not here. I was worried about that because he does like her, and we've had someone he liked abandon us before. She said she wouldn't do that to him (us).
Anyway. There ya go. I needed to get this out more than I needed to sleep. Almost came right home from choir and went to bed right after feeding because I'm tired and have a headache. But, I needed to update on the last day of Wrisomifu, and wanted to write this.
Night, ya'll.