Ms Mopy pants
Heading out shortly to do Prom make-up and then summer make-up. One sister is a model and the other is going to prom. It is going to be one HELL of a full day.
I'm currently missing the fact that i'm not in Massachusetts. I was looking forward to going, money and lack of merch. kept me from going. I think i'm going to do my best to make up for it next year and do several cons. I have not and will not be able to focus on hats for a bit due to the house. The irony is as well that this is the time of the year where I'm the most busy with make up. Photographers love to use the sunshine (most of them do not have studios or lights so the outside world is the studio and the sun is the light box ;-)
I feel like i'm in some weird holding pattern where nothing is actually mine. I'm also having weird anxiety over the move- the house is ridiculously beautiful and i'm hoping to do it justice but the weirdest thing is as much as i've moved this is the only time i've fretted about it. I've never had to move so much stuff before... Every time I've moved I've had to loose a lot of what i owed or just had my clothing and a few personal items.
A little personal info about me: I've gone for a very long time not having things, couch surfed for a while homeless and before that living with my father and grandmother i slept on the floor of a room with bugs that due to the size of them could eat your face. I like the fact that i can own things now and guard my possessions like other people would guard their kids. One piece of furniture i will never get rid of is my two drawer chest- it was the first item i bought for myself with my own money- the first thing i ever owned that was actually and truly mine. It makes me happy i can have fun things to play with and look at.
I'm fretting like the dickens that things are going to get broken during the move. I know they are only things- but they are *my* things (and yes chads ;-) It's hard to explain, I like the little world chad and i have created and want to bring it safe to a new place and make it feel like home again.
I'm currently missing the fact that i'm not in Massachusetts. I was looking forward to going, money and lack of merch. kept me from going. I think i'm going to do my best to make up for it next year and do several cons. I have not and will not be able to focus on hats for a bit due to the house. The irony is as well that this is the time of the year where I'm the most busy with make up. Photographers love to use the sunshine (most of them do not have studios or lights so the outside world is the studio and the sun is the light box ;-)
I feel like i'm in some weird holding pattern where nothing is actually mine. I'm also having weird anxiety over the move- the house is ridiculously beautiful and i'm hoping to do it justice but the weirdest thing is as much as i've moved this is the only time i've fretted about it. I've never had to move so much stuff before... Every time I've moved I've had to loose a lot of what i owed or just had my clothing and a few personal items.
A little personal info about me: I've gone for a very long time not having things, couch surfed for a while homeless and before that living with my father and grandmother i slept on the floor of a room with bugs that due to the size of them could eat your face. I like the fact that i can own things now and guard my possessions like other people would guard their kids. One piece of furniture i will never get rid of is my two drawer chest- it was the first item i bought for myself with my own money- the first thing i ever owned that was actually and truly mine. It makes me happy i can have fun things to play with and look at.
I'm fretting like the dickens that things are going to get broken during the move. I know they are only things- but they are *my* things (and yes chads ;-) It's hard to explain, I like the little world chad and i have created and want to bring it safe to a new place and make it feel like home again.