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[acslaya]

i could've tried to start again but i knew it'd always end at the same point.i can't go forward then stop.something keeps pushing me to move on.when you hit a wall you can either be stopped by that wall,go through it,or walk away at your failure.this time like every other i walked away.it may have seemed selfish to do this,but i can't get past that i think it's better for the two of us.i can't keep getting to this point and break promises.i could stop making promises but i don't think i can stop getting to that point.i'm no longer going to have her hold a spot for me,i won't make her wait,i don't want her to feel convenient within my busy life.

the last thing she said was that she hated me,but i think it's better for her.