So far so far.
I've been in an absolutely foul mood lately.
And I don't really know why.
I think a lot of it has to do with the number of things on my mind, and not all of them are things I can talk to people here about.
I'm still on hold with the one international chain that got back to me.
They told me they're interested, but still trying to find a hotel to take me (I applied via corporate).
The Seychelles has been mentioned, but nothing concrete. It's a bit worrying, but not overbearing.
Dissertation is going along slowly. I've let too much work accumulate due to procrastination and I'm absolutely backlogged. I'm going to have to slave like a dog in the coming two weeks; one of which is actually my midterm break. I just pray I can churn out a dissertation that I can be proud of.
I have a paper due this Wednesday, and I've only started researching for it, not actually typing (this is mitigated by there being a 2000 word limit, and the teacher's pretty strict). An in-class case study based exam on Monday, and another exam that coincides with the paper submission.
I have something that's been nagging at me emotionally (to the point of manifesting in my dreams) and I don't really see how I'm going to purge it any time soon sort of doing something drastic that would probably alter the social landscape of my current school life fairly drastically.
I've also been toying with the idea that really, I'm not longer interested in a relationship. Or rather, to be precise, I don't see myself being able to convince myself that anyone is worth the aggravation and grief that comes with a relationship.
I'm also really tired of random people crawling out of the wood work to ask for help.
I'm also tired of helping longtime close friends with problems that don't change. Just break up with her. Just get over him and move on. Stop wallowing. Or if you want to wallow, don't tell me about it because I feel distressed that I can't do anything.
The only time I feel actually interested in helping people is when I don't know you or your issues very well and I feel like it's an insight into who you are, or it's for school and I know that you're (at least usually) a hardworking and motivated student and I so earnestly want to see you do well.
I think I'm burning out. And I don't see how to stop it.
Just two and a half months more. Getting there isn't hard.
Arriving in style is.
And I don't really know why.
I think a lot of it has to do with the number of things on my mind, and not all of them are things I can talk to people here about.
I'm still on hold with the one international chain that got back to me.
They told me they're interested, but still trying to find a hotel to take me (I applied via corporate).
The Seychelles has been mentioned, but nothing concrete. It's a bit worrying, but not overbearing.
Dissertation is going along slowly. I've let too much work accumulate due to procrastination and I'm absolutely backlogged. I'm going to have to slave like a dog in the coming two weeks; one of which is actually my midterm break. I just pray I can churn out a dissertation that I can be proud of.
I have a paper due this Wednesday, and I've only started researching for it, not actually typing (this is mitigated by there being a 2000 word limit, and the teacher's pretty strict). An in-class case study based exam on Monday, and another exam that coincides with the paper submission.
I have something that's been nagging at me emotionally (to the point of manifesting in my dreams) and I don't really see how I'm going to purge it any time soon sort of doing something drastic that would probably alter the social landscape of my current school life fairly drastically.
I've also been toying with the idea that really, I'm not longer interested in a relationship. Or rather, to be precise, I don't see myself being able to convince myself that anyone is worth the aggravation and grief that comes with a relationship.
I'm also really tired of random people crawling out of the wood work to ask for help.
I'm also tired of helping longtime close friends with problems that don't change. Just break up with her. Just get over him and move on. Stop wallowing. Or if you want to wallow, don't tell me about it because I feel distressed that I can't do anything.
The only time I feel actually interested in helping people is when I don't know you or your issues very well and I feel like it's an insight into who you are, or it's for school and I know that you're (at least usually) a hardworking and motivated student and I so earnestly want to see you do well.
I think I'm burning out. And I don't see how to stop it.
Just two and a half months more. Getting there isn't hard.
Arriving in style is.