(no subject)
you
broke all the windows
of my house
the force shakes trees
you broke all the windows
around me
and the wind
and the rain
come in
to drown me
i stand under cold water
my chest explodes
i embrace it
remembering
that it isn't easy to be strong
and the best things usually hurt
you break my windows
endlessly
the realization takes hold:
this is what i wanted,
this is what i want.
miss you like something i lost
needed it before i ever had it
needed it when i lost it
and can't stop needing when i find it,
but am forced to lose again
in my pocket:
i.d.
(obnoxious) baby blue lighter
rosary (mexico)
chamomile tea
(not in my pocket, but a new face in mind connected to such happy things)
all i have is
all i need.
lately have to feel my forehead
pinch myself,
is this real?
a sign i made with purple marker on unused notebook,
propped against my closet
seen when i wake up and go to sleep,
it greets:
YOU CAN BE HAPPY
broke all the windows
of my house
the force shakes trees
you broke all the windows
around me
and the wind
and the rain
come in
to drown me
i stand under cold water
my chest explodes
i embrace it
remembering
that it isn't easy to be strong
and the best things usually hurt
you break my windows
endlessly
the realization takes hold:
this is what i wanted,
this is what i want.
miss you like something i lost
needed it before i ever had it
needed it when i lost it
and can't stop needing when i find it,
but am forced to lose again
in my pocket:
i.d.
(obnoxious) baby blue lighter
rosary (mexico)
chamomile tea
(not in my pocket, but a new face in mind connected to such happy things)
all i have is
all i need.
lately have to feel my forehead
pinch myself,
is this real?
a sign i made with purple marker on unused notebook,
propped against my closet
seen when i wake up and go to sleep,
it greets:
YOU CAN BE HAPPY