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ive come to the conculsion that i write waaaay too much. like that last entry, i bet no one even read it because they saw how long and needlessly sappy it was. not that i really care if people read it or not, but im more concerned about my annoyance factor to others. so no more long-ass entries (ill try) unless i have just reason to, like a concert or something. i seriously think im a graphomaniac. before i found music in 8th grade, i used to fill a composition book every 2 months or so. i have boxes of them now. now i dont write as much, but it still need to sometimes.
hafta write my DBQ, but im in one of my destracted moods. talking to everyone about the concert, which sounds so effing amazing, i wish i was more of a fan so i could have gone. the experience sounds so effing cool, going with all your friends...im jealous to say the least. but im not generally a jealous person, so its cool. i basically just wish i went.
if it wasnt for the damn DBQ it would have been a nice light HW weekend. well, i should be grateful. pheh. im currently finding it hard to be grateful for anything that the woo gives me acedemics-wise. my grades are a nightmare, my mental state is slowly declining, college apps are much closer than they seem...im finding it hard to be normal. this is the most depressed ive ever been in my life. i feel like going to bed for a year and waking up for prom, the maxwell/stunt party, PJ concert, and wills pool party. i really really want it to be next year now, but only in terms of classes. i want this horrid year of grades and hard classes to be over and i want to take all the classes i want to take next year (minus english and precalc) with a clean slate and a well-rested mind. but i dont want to waste the time i have with my firends. gah!
DBQ time...
hafta write my DBQ, but im in one of my destracted moods. talking to everyone about the concert, which sounds so effing amazing, i wish i was more of a fan so i could have gone. the experience sounds so effing cool, going with all your friends...im jealous to say the least. but im not generally a jealous person, so its cool. i basically just wish i went.
if it wasnt for the damn DBQ it would have been a nice light HW weekend. well, i should be grateful. pheh. im currently finding it hard to be grateful for anything that the woo gives me acedemics-wise. my grades are a nightmare, my mental state is slowly declining, college apps are much closer than they seem...im finding it hard to be normal. this is the most depressed ive ever been in my life. i feel like going to bed for a year and waking up for prom, the maxwell/stunt party, PJ concert, and wills pool party. i really really want it to be next year now, but only in terms of classes. i want this horrid year of grades and hard classes to be over and i want to take all the classes i want to take next year (minus english and precalc) with a clean slate and a well-rested mind. but i dont want to waste the time i have with my firends. gah!
DBQ time...