RL. rambling. Two months and counting
ok.
I have been feeling gloom and depressed. Nothing new there, I know. But now I feel isolated and lonely.
I have been in the States for two months now. My english is marginally better, but then again I really don't have all that much opportunity to practise it. It is a lonely country with very lonely people. And they all have a huge personal space.
Every day is as if I have to wake up two times. The first time is normal in-the-morning- wake up and the second time is the mental change from spanish to english. It always takes me some time to wake up and it takes me even more time to make the change of my metal process from one language to the other.
Another thing is the noise...or lack of it. I'm not use to little amount of people in such huge spaces. I miss lots of people and noises. I miss the city noise and the hoards of people moving and the noise.
Don't get me wrong. Lansing is a beautiful place, is just not a city. Even if it is the state capital it is not a city. It still have that rural "charm" that so many people like. Is boring and predictable.
I'm bored.
On the other hand my experiments seem to be going really good. Even if I'm not really doing that great in the only class I'm taking. That also depresses me. I understand the subject. I understand the class but I seem to be unable to show my knowledge in the exams. Is frustrating.
ugh.
I miss home. I miss the food. I miss my friends. I miss my family....MY FAMILY!!!!! ugh!!!! I'm desperate.
I have been feeling gloom and depressed. Nothing new there, I know. But now I feel isolated and lonely.
I have been in the States for two months now. My english is marginally better, but then again I really don't have all that much opportunity to practise it. It is a lonely country with very lonely people. And they all have a huge personal space.
Every day is as if I have to wake up two times. The first time is normal in-the-morning- wake up and the second time is the mental change from spanish to english. It always takes me some time to wake up and it takes me even more time to make the change of my metal process from one language to the other.
Another thing is the noise...or lack of it. I'm not use to little amount of people in such huge spaces. I miss lots of people and noises. I miss the city noise and the hoards of people moving and the noise.
Don't get me wrong. Lansing is a beautiful place, is just not a city. Even if it is the state capital it is not a city. It still have that rural "charm" that so many people like. Is boring and predictable.
I'm bored.
On the other hand my experiments seem to be going really good. Even if I'm not really doing that great in the only class I'm taking. That also depresses me. I understand the subject. I understand the class but I seem to be unable to show my knowledge in the exams. Is frustrating.
ugh.
I miss home. I miss the food. I miss my friends. I miss my family....MY FAMILY!!!!! ugh!!!! I'm desperate.