Dear Diary..
Dear Diary..
I... ok, I'm gonna say it straight - I'm pregnant. I'm so scared you know? Never been so scared through my entire life and I.. oh damn it! I wish I knew what I'm doing. I wish it was easy for me to deal with it. I wish I was a little less coward to it. But I am. I'm so confused and right now, the only thing that keeps me going is Peter.
He is happy and I'm honestly surprised about that. He took the news really well and I think he's gonna be a wonderful father to our kids. Oh... and by the way - I'm pregnant with twins. Lydia told me. She never lied, so I think I'm gonna have twin girls. Yeah, that scares me, but at the same time makes me kinda happy. However, my feelings are mess lately.
Then... I spent the last few night awake. I couldn't sleep. I told Peter for the only one sleepless night. He would be worried otherwise. I spent the nights in the bathroom, close to the toilet. I felt so sick and tired I couldn't even walk back to the bed. But everything got better in the mornings. I felt good enough to walk and crawl back in the bed. Peter did not know about this too. I want to spare him from this. His work is enough and now with the kids... well, I'll be fine.
I felt a small pain in my waist today, while I was with Lydia. I'm okay now. I'm good after Lydia touched my hands and told me about her vision of my twins. She saw Peter and me, walking them to school. "small smile" I wish she's right about this. Yeah, I hope she is.
I miss Isaac. Haven't heard from him in few days and all this makes me worried. I wanna see him, talk to him. I wanna know what's in his head and how's the things with Simone going. I just wanna talk to him. His absence is making me nervous and that is not good for me. Add my constant worry about Peter... and yeah, that's not good to me right now.
Kay is good. Not sure about her relationship with Zach is, but right now I don\t have time or strength to think about it. Zach is trying to win me back as his friend. I'm not sure it's gonna happen. I talk o him though. I have to, because of Kay.
Damn! I'm so tired and so lost without Peter around. I need him so much right now...
Your, Claire
I... ok, I'm gonna say it straight - I'm pregnant. I'm so scared you know? Never been so scared through my entire life and I.. oh damn it! I wish I knew what I'm doing. I wish it was easy for me to deal with it. I wish I was a little less coward to it. But I am. I'm so confused and right now, the only thing that keeps me going is Peter.
He is happy and I'm honestly surprised about that. He took the news really well and I think he's gonna be a wonderful father to our kids. Oh... and by the way - I'm pregnant with twins. Lydia told me. She never lied, so I think I'm gonna have twin girls. Yeah, that scares me, but at the same time makes me kinda happy. However, my feelings are mess lately.
Then... I spent the last few night awake. I couldn't sleep. I told Peter for the only one sleepless night. He would be worried otherwise. I spent the nights in the bathroom, close to the toilet. I felt so sick and tired I couldn't even walk back to the bed. But everything got better in the mornings. I felt good enough to walk and crawl back in the bed. Peter did not know about this too. I want to spare him from this. His work is enough and now with the kids... well, I'll be fine.
I felt a small pain in my waist today, while I was with Lydia. I'm okay now. I'm good after Lydia touched my hands and told me about her vision of my twins. She saw Peter and me, walking them to school. "small smile" I wish she's right about this. Yeah, I hope she is.
I miss Isaac. Haven't heard from him in few days and all this makes me worried. I wanna see him, talk to him. I wanna know what's in his head and how's the things with Simone going. I just wanna talk to him. His absence is making me nervous and that is not good for me. Add my constant worry about Peter... and yeah, that's not good to me right now.
Kay is good. Not sure about her relationship with Zach is, but right now I don\t have time or strength to think about it. Zach is trying to win me back as his friend. I'm not sure it's gonna happen. I talk o him though. I have to, because of Kay.
Damn! I'm so tired and so lost without Peter around. I need him so much right now...
Your, Claire