Dear Diary...
Dear Diary...
Where I should begin? A lot happened these days and a lot came in to my mind. I was confused, angry, happy, disappointed, tired, exhausted and happy again. "laughs" Yeah -- I said a lot happened. Let me explain it to you now.
Confused -- I thought I knew Zach. I thought he was my best friend. I thought he is loyal to his friends. But guess what -- he doesn't. He's changed and I don't like that change! I don't like people betraying their friends. It's just sux!
Angry -- Zach again!! How he could do that?? What the Hell is wrong with him? What Isaac did for him - he gave him a room to stay and his friendship! And Zach - yeah, he just kissed Isaac's girlfriend! Then - he went to Vienna. Then - he tried to kill himself again! I'm not sure I want to talk to him ever again! Again -- what the hell is wrong with him???
Disappointed -- Kay... and Zach. No, I definitely won't support them. Not my thing and me and Peter will stay away! We already talked about this. It's their life, not ours and we just... will stay away! We have enough drama in our life. We have enough tension and we fight every time when we talk about this relationship. So -- no more!
Tired & Exhausted -- Well... too much emotions... and that's what happens. My friends' problems, Peter's absence... and I thought I'm pregnant. I'm not. Kay bought the test for me. I did it without Peter knowing. It's for the best. I don't want him to worry about me. I'm cool. "sighs". Then I met with Lydia again -- she told me she can see twin girls in my future. So that's good. "small smile"
Happy -- "laughs" I called Mel and we finally had some coffee time together. I honestly missed my friend and I was worried about her and the baby. But she said it's okay and that could only make me happy for her. She deserves it. Then... I called to Isaac. I went to see him. He hadn't called in a long time as well. We talked and I told him about my marriage plans with Peter. He is happy for me and honestly, I didn't expect any other reaction from him. That's why he is my friend and I can count on me for everything! (He has plans to restore his relationship with Simone. I'll support him!! He deserves to be happy.)
And Peter... "giggles" Well, let's just say he can be very inventive and makes me happy in so many ways. No one else does. (I love him by the way. LOL)
Note to me - have to talk to Kay. I'll try to talk calmly. I'll try it, because she... well, she was beside me when I needed a friend. I owe her that at least. But I don't think I can support her right now. That's all.
Well, that's another of my sleepless nights.
So quiet...
Your, Claire
Where I should begin? A lot happened these days and a lot came in to my mind. I was confused, angry, happy, disappointed, tired, exhausted and happy again. "laughs" Yeah -- I said a lot happened. Let me explain it to you now.
Confused -- I thought I knew Zach. I thought he was my best friend. I thought he is loyal to his friends. But guess what -- he doesn't. He's changed and I don't like that change! I don't like people betraying their friends. It's just sux!
Angry -- Zach again!! How he could do that?? What the Hell is wrong with him? What Isaac did for him - he gave him a room to stay and his friendship! And Zach - yeah, he just kissed Isaac's girlfriend! Then - he went to Vienna. Then - he tried to kill himself again! I'm not sure I want to talk to him ever again! Again -- what the hell is wrong with him???
Disappointed -- Kay... and Zach. No, I definitely won't support them. Not my thing and me and Peter will stay away! We already talked about this. It's their life, not ours and we just... will stay away! We have enough drama in our life. We have enough tension and we fight every time when we talk about this relationship. So -- no more!
Tired & Exhausted -- Well... too much emotions... and that's what happens. My friends' problems, Peter's absence... and I thought I'm pregnant. I'm not. Kay bought the test for me. I did it without Peter knowing. It's for the best. I don't want him to worry about me. I'm cool. "sighs". Then I met with Lydia again -- she told me she can see twin girls in my future. So that's good. "small smile"
Happy -- "laughs" I called Mel and we finally had some coffee time together. I honestly missed my friend and I was worried about her and the baby. But she said it's okay and that could only make me happy for her. She deserves it. Then... I called to Isaac. I went to see him. He hadn't called in a long time as well. We talked and I told him about my marriage plans with Peter. He is happy for me and honestly, I didn't expect any other reaction from him. That's why he is my friend and I can count on me for everything! (He has plans to restore his relationship with Simone. I'll support him!! He deserves to be happy.)
And Peter... "giggles" Well, let's just say he can be very inventive and makes me happy in so many ways. No one else does. (I love him by the way. LOL)
Note to me - have to talk to Kay. I'll try to talk calmly. I'll try it, because she... well, she was beside me when I needed a friend. I owe her that at least. But I don't think I can support her right now. That's all.
Well, that's another of my sleepless nights.
So quiet...
Your, Claire