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i have been on my couch for 4 days straight. i think my brain is melting again. for any of you out there that don't know, i have a neurological disorder that my doctors have called chronic fatigue syndrome, although that's not really a diagnosis. it's what they tell people like me who are chronically ill but don't have a disease they can actually diagnose. i have permanant vertigo, a tremor, and i'm MUCH more tired than normal people. every once in a while i get episodes where i am extra dizzy for a day or two. it started three years ago, when it knocked me on my ass and i was bedridden for 6 months. no school, no work, no driving, or going out, or even reading for the first few months. i couldn't function. it's like my brain slows down for no reason. that happened 3 years ago. and i feel like it might be happening again.
people with chroinic fatigue syndrome have episodes - sometimes it could only happen once, and sometimes it could happen all the time. i was hoping i was one of those people who had one really bad episode and then just dealt with minor symptoms forever. but something is definitely wrong with me. my head is full of fuzz. i am exhausted for no reason. i am so dizzy i can't stand up without falling over. i am worried. very, very worried.
when this happened the first time i went to 11 doctors and no one could help me. they put me on medicine that they give narcoleptics to keep me awake during the day, and anti-vertigo medicine that i have to take every 6 hours. but since saturday, nothing has helped. i am weak. and i have no idea why.
fucking a. i am pissed. and worried. and dizzy. i am afraid am slipping back into that dark abyss that i spent so many months in 3 years ago. maybe not. but something is definitely wrong. i don't know what to do.
people with chroinic fatigue syndrome have episodes - sometimes it could only happen once, and sometimes it could happen all the time. i was hoping i was one of those people who had one really bad episode and then just dealt with minor symptoms forever. but something is definitely wrong with me. my head is full of fuzz. i am exhausted for no reason. i am so dizzy i can't stand up without falling over. i am worried. very, very worried.
when this happened the first time i went to 11 doctors and no one could help me. they put me on medicine that they give narcoleptics to keep me awake during the day, and anti-vertigo medicine that i have to take every 6 hours. but since saturday, nothing has helped. i am weak. and i have no idea why.
fucking a. i am pissed. and worried. and dizzy. i am afraid am slipping back into that dark abyss that i spent so many months in 3 years ago. maybe not. but something is definitely wrong. i don't know what to do.