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oh fuck...im going insane.
im so fucking lonely. and i absolutely fucking hate it when people tell me that im not alone. that i have my friends and other people around me and that theyre here for me. well no fucking duh. its the other type that i suffer from. its like...yeah when im at school, im surrounded by an immense amount of people. but who do i come home to? what is it that keeps me warm at night? who is there to hold? when im upset, who do i cry to? ......no one. so dont give me that fucking bullshit of me not being alone. you dont know what its like to be me. no one does. and yeah...no one ever will. so fuck off. let me think what i want to think. let me feel whatever goddamn feeling i have.
i still have a whole list of things that i still need to do. and none of it is getting done. i need some motivation. but i have none whatsoever.
im sweating. my laptops over heating. my leg aches. im so lonely. i want to cuddle.
im so fucking lonely. and i absolutely fucking hate it when people tell me that im not alone. that i have my friends and other people around me and that theyre here for me. well no fucking duh. its the other type that i suffer from. its like...yeah when im at school, im surrounded by an immense amount of people. but who do i come home to? what is it that keeps me warm at night? who is there to hold? when im upset, who do i cry to? ......no one. so dont give me that fucking bullshit of me not being alone. you dont know what its like to be me. no one does. and yeah...no one ever will. so fuck off. let me think what i want to think. let me feel whatever goddamn feeling i have.
i still have a whole list of things that i still need to do. and none of it is getting done. i need some motivation. but i have none whatsoever.
im sweating. my laptops over heating. my leg aches. im so lonely. i want to cuddle.