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Went to the doctor today for my pre op evaluation. It was pretty simple, blood pressure, looking for lumps and bumps, listening to my lungs, weight, history etc. Well, it turns out that I'm actually very "healthy." The doctor was quite impressed that the last time I got sick was the middle of last semester and I managed to dodge all of the flu/stomach things going around. She was happy with my blood pressure, diet, and previous activity level. I guess it just frustrates me that I keep gaining weight and there's nothing I can do about it until a month or so after surgery. I should be happy, I'm healthy and whatnot but I really want to shed these extra pounds. I did get on the scale the other day and I lost 3 lbs. It's a start I guess.
After that I decided on getting the depo provera shot again. I loved that shot and now they have a new one that only needs to be injected into fat, not muscle. This means that I can actually give myself the shot! Because it's given in the fat, there are less side effects, less bone density loss, and less weight gain. All in all, it's the better way to go, however, it's very new...right on the market although it's been tested for the past 3 years or so. Who knows what they'll find out along the line with this drug...I'm probably injecting cancer into myself or something. Whatever. There were over 16,000 subjects studied on this drug for a year and none of them got pregnant. Those odds are good enough for me.
I'm in the APO office right now, bored out of my mind. To make matters worse, there are two girls over in the Crusaid for Christ office space right now just jabbering about the stupidest things you'd expect middle school girls to talk about. I want to write some more poetry but I just can't concentrate. On top of those girls, there is someone out in the student center "beach" (main area) that is playing piano...badly. The same chords over and over 6 times, then moves down to a lower chord-hits six times. Argh! If you can't play piano, don't make the whole freaking student center listen to you suck!! Go over to Merill and play somewhere where nobody has to listen to it!
I've decided that I'm finally going to start sharing my poetry in slam form. My poetry is really written to be read out loud and is already slam-esque. They just need to be enlongated. I've got some awesome ideas. There are parts of my past that I feel I'm finally ready to address in poetic form and I've also got some controvercial topics I'd like to write about. There's a poem I just started last night that has the potential to be great...It's very personal to me and I wonder if I should use myself or a character only refered to as "she." I'm not quite sure what will be more powerful: allowing the audience to see themselves in the character or if my situation was so unique that I'd have to use "I" so the audience can feel as if they connect with my inner being. I guess I'll write it as "I" for now and switch the pronoun later if needed. I was thinking about asking someone else to read my poetry for competition. I'm a writer, not a preformer and my voice would slaughter the poetry...but then again can it have so much meaning for anyone but me? Will I see it read on stage and get upset that it wasn't read the way I wrote it? I want my art to be...mine. I'm also thinking about writing a book. Well, I have been for years but I've had severe writer's block. Now I have so many ideas and so many places I can take this ideas...perhaps now's the time to start compiling. I heard they're searching for teenage poets in the publishing industry right now. This may be my shot.
After that I decided on getting the depo provera shot again. I loved that shot and now they have a new one that only needs to be injected into fat, not muscle. This means that I can actually give myself the shot! Because it's given in the fat, there are less side effects, less bone density loss, and less weight gain. All in all, it's the better way to go, however, it's very new...right on the market although it's been tested for the past 3 years or so. Who knows what they'll find out along the line with this drug...I'm probably injecting cancer into myself or something. Whatever. There were over 16,000 subjects studied on this drug for a year and none of them got pregnant. Those odds are good enough for me.
I'm in the APO office right now, bored out of my mind. To make matters worse, there are two girls over in the Crusaid for Christ office space right now just jabbering about the stupidest things you'd expect middle school girls to talk about. I want to write some more poetry but I just can't concentrate. On top of those girls, there is someone out in the student center "beach" (main area) that is playing piano...badly. The same chords over and over 6 times, then moves down to a lower chord-hits six times. Argh! If you can't play piano, don't make the whole freaking student center listen to you suck!! Go over to Merill and play somewhere where nobody has to listen to it!
I've decided that I'm finally going to start sharing my poetry in slam form. My poetry is really written to be read out loud and is already slam-esque. They just need to be enlongated. I've got some awesome ideas. There are parts of my past that I feel I'm finally ready to address in poetic form and I've also got some controvercial topics I'd like to write about. There's a poem I just started last night that has the potential to be great...It's very personal to me and I wonder if I should use myself or a character only refered to as "she." I'm not quite sure what will be more powerful: allowing the audience to see themselves in the character or if my situation was so unique that I'd have to use "I" so the audience can feel as if they connect with my inner being. I guess I'll write it as "I" for now and switch the pronoun later if needed. I was thinking about asking someone else to read my poetry for competition. I'm a writer, not a preformer and my voice would slaughter the poetry...but then again can it have so much meaning for anyone but me? Will I see it read on stage and get upset that it wasn't read the way I wrote it? I want my art to be...mine. I'm also thinking about writing a book. Well, I have been for years but I've had severe writer's block. Now I have so many ideas and so many places I can take this ideas...perhaps now's the time to start compiling. I heard they're searching for teenage poets in the publishing industry right now. This may be my shot.