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So.
Thursday my mom and I picked up my sister and her kid, my nephew. He's cool, as I've said before. I enjoy him; I'm sure there will be many pictures for all of you later.
Then my cousin and his two friends, Dephne and Austin came. We watched internet videos, ate sandwiches and went to bed.
On Friday all of us went to my Uncle Larry's in PA for Thanksgiving dinner. It was tasty. Daniel, my cousin, is smarter than me. It's weird to think that. Maybe one day I'll be able to catch up, but he has like a 2 or 3 year head start, he was asking for books for his birthday when I was still asking for toys. Bastard. But I love him, he's such a cool guy.
After dinner, I drove Daniel, Dephne and Austin to Austin's apartment which is around an hour from my Uncle's house. I got mildly lost, but I know the area pretty well, so it didn't take long to get back on track. I was gonna hang out with Evan and Shannon, but I took too long and they ended up going to bed. =/ I drove home alone, listening to music. I got somewhat depressed, which doesn't happen often anymore. It was weird, my dad called and I (for the VERY first time) felt guilty that I kind of don't care aboot him. Some backstory:
My dad's a pretty ridiculous alcoholic. My sister and he (they're not related) hate(d) each other, and he was unbelievably terrible to my mom. I hated him for a while, to a point that I wanted to kill him. I eventually moved past that, and now I'm just ambivalent. He's somewhat insane too, he's asked why my mom and he have gotten divorced on more than one occasion. He also talks aboot the evils of drinking and getting drunk. As if he never does it. Very odd. MOVING ON.
But yeah, I was talking to him and tried to keep the conversation going because I felt bad. I am the only reason he lives in America, and pretty much his only friend. He has lots of friends though, he just hates them all. He's the most egotistical man I have ever met, but also really generous? So yeah I dunno.
After that Mike called me and that was good. He cheered me up a lot, unknowingly probably. I'm lucky to have the friends I do.
My sister said yesterday that I'm not happy without a girlfriend. Is she right? I dunno. Stefanie and I were so amazingly happy together at times; it was such a full feeling. Hopefully she has/will get that feeling with Jeremy. Bah! I hate this, I hate not being able to be happy when I'm alone.
One good thing though, is I'm over Stefanie. For a while I wasn't and the thought of her with someone else really bothered me. Now it's kind of nice. Like, "Oh, there's that person I really care for and she's happy! Hooray!" Took long enough though. Also, I was thinking how we don't talk much really (which is much my fault as hers) and how maybe that's good? Or not? Ugh nevermind. When I was writing that, I disagreed with myself. Either way, we went out and now are not. Therefore separation comes. THE END.
I also realized that I have like 6 crushes, all of which are very passive. I don't really ever stop having them. At least I have good fantasizing material.
I'm aboot to go and see the Mist with Awesome. I like the story, so I'll most likely enjoy it.
I wanna run away, I wanna run away, I wanna run away, I wanna run away
I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too
I talk WAY too much aboot wanting a girlfriend.
Thursday my mom and I picked up my sister and her kid, my nephew. He's cool, as I've said before. I enjoy him; I'm sure there will be many pictures for all of you later.
Then my cousin and his two friends, Dephne and Austin came. We watched internet videos, ate sandwiches and went to bed.
On Friday all of us went to my Uncle Larry's in PA for Thanksgiving dinner. It was tasty. Daniel, my cousin, is smarter than me. It's weird to think that. Maybe one day I'll be able to catch up, but he has like a 2 or 3 year head start, he was asking for books for his birthday when I was still asking for toys. Bastard. But I love him, he's such a cool guy.
After dinner, I drove Daniel, Dephne and Austin to Austin's apartment which is around an hour from my Uncle's house. I got mildly lost, but I know the area pretty well, so it didn't take long to get back on track. I was gonna hang out with Evan and Shannon, but I took too long and they ended up going to bed. =/ I drove home alone, listening to music. I got somewhat depressed, which doesn't happen often anymore. It was weird, my dad called and I (for the VERY first time) felt guilty that I kind of don't care aboot him. Some backstory:
My dad's a pretty ridiculous alcoholic. My sister and he (they're not related) hate(d) each other, and he was unbelievably terrible to my mom. I hated him for a while, to a point that I wanted to kill him. I eventually moved past that, and now I'm just ambivalent. He's somewhat insane too, he's asked why my mom and he have gotten divorced on more than one occasion. He also talks aboot the evils of drinking and getting drunk. As if he never does it. Very odd. MOVING ON.
But yeah, I was talking to him and tried to keep the conversation going because I felt bad. I am the only reason he lives in America, and pretty much his only friend. He has lots of friends though, he just hates them all. He's the most egotistical man I have ever met, but also really generous? So yeah I dunno.
After that Mike called me and that was good. He cheered me up a lot, unknowingly probably. I'm lucky to have the friends I do.
My sister said yesterday that I'm not happy without a girlfriend. Is she right? I dunno. Stefanie and I were so amazingly happy together at times; it was such a full feeling. Hopefully she has/will get that feeling with Jeremy. Bah! I hate this, I hate not being able to be happy when I'm alone.
One good thing though, is I'm over Stefanie. For a while I wasn't and the thought of her with someone else really bothered me. Now it's kind of nice. Like, "Oh, there's that person I really care for and she's happy! Hooray!" Took long enough though. Also, I was thinking how we don't talk much really (which is much my fault as hers) and how maybe that's good? Or not? Ugh nevermind. When I was writing that, I disagreed with myself. Either way, we went out and now are not. Therefore separation comes. THE END.
I also realized that I have like 6 crushes, all of which are very passive. I don't really ever stop having them. At least I have good fantasizing material.
I'm aboot to go and see the Mist with Awesome. I like the story, so I'll most likely enjoy it.
I wanna run away, I wanna run away, I wanna run away, I wanna run away
I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too, I wanna bring you too
I talk WAY too much aboot wanting a girlfriend.