Balance(Drabble)
Title: Balance
Author: ace3851
Rating: PG
Pairing: Ohmiya
Length: Drabble
Genre: Angst -> Fluff
Disclaimer: iDisclaim
Summary: When Ohno's self-confidence runs wary, Nino is there to pull him back up.
“Always looks like he’s sleeping.”
“Too tan.”
“Unleaderlike.”
He laughs it all of. After all, it’s all just for a show, right?
People will watch, around the country and maybe even beyond. And they will laugh at it. If it makes people laugh, then taking a few insults is not a big deal, right?
So time after time, he is made fun of. Called names, and not taken seriously when, really, he is trying.
And then, over time, that somehow becomes part of his character. That’s who he is, so it’s okay to treat him in a way based on those aspects of him.
Slow, unconfident, sleepy.
They punch it into him over and over. At first, it’s the voices that come from around him. One day, though, the voice inside his own head starts to chant: Slow, unconfident, sleepy…
Nino sees this. It hurts to see Arashi’s Leader like that, but there’s no choice; it’s their jobs, and sometimes, some things have to be put over others. Nino himself picks on Ohno sometimes.
One day, though, enough becomes enough. It happens after a certain recording, where Ohno returns to the dressing room with eyes cast lower than ever.
Complimenting another person out of the blue is something embarrassing. Especially for a person like Nino, who has high pride and goes by rules to dodge shame.
Ohno sits on the opposite end of the couch from Nino and quietly lets his small body sink into the couch.
Nino’s eyes are fixed on his cell phone, and he is aimlessly going into his empty inbox and out into the main menu again in an attempt to show indifference as he says:
“I think you’re pretty amazing, you know.”
Nino feels Ohno’s gaze land on him from the other side of the couch. He pretends not to notice, despite his reddening face and pounding heart.
“… Thanks.”
For the audience, Ohno’s feelings are sacrificed. Because it’ll make countless different faces smile, it’s worth it.
For the sake of raising Ohno up, Nino’s pride is sacrificed. Because it’ll make the one Nino loves so dearly feel lighter, it’s worth it.
Everything has balance.
But nothing is perfect.
When Nino is allowed just a bit closer to Ohno, with the label of ‘lover’, he is able to shed away a little more of his pride.
“You are perfect,” Nino whispers into Ohno’s ear one night with warmly honest eyes, when they’re washing dishes after finishing a meal that the younger made with extra love and care. Ohno slides his hand under the soapy warm waters to hold Nino’s small one.
Ohno smiles, and it holds a certain brightness and confidence that Nino hadn't seen in a while.
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So for the past eighty trillion weeks(or like 7), I've been working on a fic. At first, it was fine; the plot was fun and I had this weird hope for it. But then, it started sucking... and before I knew it, it turned into literally the worst piece of shit I have ever written.
And then, today, I just got up, took the file and then totally purged it. It felt great; it was kinda like the feeling you get when you see that one Godawful character in the movie get killed off. For example, Shannon's death in Lost. That really hit the spot.
Anyway. With the weird mood of reenacting Shannon's death through deleting my shitty fanfic, I heatedly typed up this drabble in less than ten minutes... and, you know what? I am not going to even check over it try to decide if it's either bad or really bad. I'm just gonna go for it. Don't judge, yeah?
Thanks for sticking around enough to read this sentence. You're a gem.