I've got to stop doing that
Woohoo, another post. It's only been... How many months?
It's not that nothing has happened. Not at all. Happenings happen. Some good, some bad. But I'm noticing a disturbing pattern here, with the infrequent posting and just plain forgetting to check e-mail (or friends' journals) for a week or so on end - it's like my social avoidance extends even to my friends. Especially when I get depressed. I get pretty much convinced that absolutely no one wants to hear my crap, and I withdraw and that makes me more depressed. Brilliant plan, eh? Neglect and ignore the few friends I do have - and right when I should be doing just the opposite.
What a friggin' head case I can be. Meh.
Well, I'm still thinking that no one wants to hear my rants and whines and rambling, but at least I'll try to make an effort in the near future to communicate more. Who knows how well it'll go, but you've gotta start somewhere.
It's not that nothing has happened. Not at all. Happenings happen. Some good, some bad. But I'm noticing a disturbing pattern here, with the infrequent posting and just plain forgetting to check e-mail (or friends' journals) for a week or so on end - it's like my social avoidance extends even to my friends. Especially when I get depressed. I get pretty much convinced that absolutely no one wants to hear my crap, and I withdraw and that makes me more depressed. Brilliant plan, eh? Neglect and ignore the few friends I do have - and right when I should be doing just the opposite.
What a friggin' head case I can be. Meh.
Well, I'm still thinking that no one wants to hear my rants and whines and rambling, but at least I'll try to make an effort in the near future to communicate more. Who knows how well it'll go, but you've gotta start somewhere.