I think I take myself too seriously (except for when my brain-to-mouth filter is deliberately switched off), and this is all quite ironic given my church background, and given that I am quite an emotional person myself, but-- haaaa, I hate unnecessary brusque emotionalism :/ it alienates me. when leaders start yelling at me (in my function as a ( Read more... )

I can't really say why everybody
wishes they were somewhere else
but in the end the only steps that
matter are the ones you take all by yourself

hngh I just teared/cried my way through reading The Final Battle.

:c

I probably should've gone for ocf last night, because the message I see condensed into a line or two that's floating around on my ocf friends' statuses-- WOW I REALLY, REALLY DON'T AGREE WITH ONE VERY CRUCIAL PART OF IT. and I probably ought to try it before I knock it, right.

see this is why I hate catchphrases.

being tired of negative things, taking negative things as expected rather than to let them upset me-- that is my mechanism of dealing with other-upsetting people-issues ( Read more... )

what it is and where it stops nobody knows
you gave me a life I never chose.

I wanna leave but the world won't let me go
I wanna leave but the world won't let me go

what it is and where it stops nobody knows
you gave me a battle I never chose.

aaaaand because I try to be pedantic about language and connotations and abbreviations, can I just say one of my MAJOR pet peeves is people abbreviating "bible study" to BS, because that's the exact abbreviation of bullshit. -_-" I mean. people. think about connotations, can ( Read more... )

'cause I can't be anyone but me, anyone but me,
and I can't keep dreaming that I'm free, dreaming that I'm free

and oh, I've been dumb, I've been perfectly beautiful
lain on my back buying lovers with stealth
but I'm sick of you all, and I'm sick of opinions
and I'm sick of this war I wage on myself

"one man's divine inspiration is another man's fevered dream. who am I to judge?"