A song's power
A song's power to make you relive feelings that you swore you'd forget. Hurts that you buried and planned to never remember.. a grudge you've held for years... the hate you hold for the person involved... and how it still hurts when you remember... wishing it could've been different. That things could have been normal.
The song's power to make tears you cried a lifetime ago well back up in your eyes, the emptiness recalled. How the words to the song are words you once spoke with a salty taste on your lips and a voice that struggled to escape your clenched throat.
How the song can make the images come back to the forefront of your memory as if it just happened 5 minutes ago. How defeated you felt. Knees on a hardwood floor. Not how you try to play it off. How you rose-color your memory, try to modify it, trying to force yourself to believe that it wasn't that way... but it was.
How the song can make you believe it was written, just for you, and then also knowing, there are other voices, clenched, trying to speak those same words every single day... and that it's a never ending cycle...
And how the song reminds you that the same situation has played out over the course of your life, in different ways, different situations, last year, last week, today.. and how your destiny lies in forever suffering that cycle and passing it on... because that's just how it is, and somehow, you've accepted it.
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Tonight's post is blamed on someone who mentioned the song in question and it made me listen to it again.
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The song's power to make tears you cried a lifetime ago well back up in your eyes, the emptiness recalled. How the words to the song are words you once spoke with a salty taste on your lips and a voice that struggled to escape your clenched throat.
How the song can make the images come back to the forefront of your memory as if it just happened 5 minutes ago. How defeated you felt. Knees on a hardwood floor. Not how you try to play it off. How you rose-color your memory, try to modify it, trying to force yourself to believe that it wasn't that way... but it was.
How the song can make you believe it was written, just for you, and then also knowing, there are other voices, clenched, trying to speak those same words every single day... and that it's a never ending cycle...
And how the song reminds you that the same situation has played out over the course of your life, in different ways, different situations, last year, last week, today.. and how your destiny lies in forever suffering that cycle and passing it on... because that's just how it is, and somehow, you've accepted it.
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Tonight's post is blamed on someone who mentioned the song in question and it made me listen to it again.
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