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i'm ready for a change
something is missing in my life. i have a pretty good idea what it is... and no one can give it to me.
i need to find a way to focus on what's really important. i haven't been focusing on anything except for my own selfish wants, and my life is just passing by and working it's way out of control.
i had a dream the other night that i was shot to death. it was problably the most intensely sad, realistic, perspective changing dream i've ever had. i could feel the bullet holes. i could feel my life draining out of me. i could feel my dad shaking me to hold on and him crying over me. it made me not want to die anymore
it's been so long since i've sat down and analyzed my life. typed it out. spoken about it. written something. it's so hard to just think about it. it always gets jumbled up. i lose the point i orginally started at. gotta have it cemented down. concrete. charted out.
i need to change
something is missing in my life. i have a pretty good idea what it is... and no one can give it to me.
i need to find a way to focus on what's really important. i haven't been focusing on anything except for my own selfish wants, and my life is just passing by and working it's way out of control.
i had a dream the other night that i was shot to death. it was problably the most intensely sad, realistic, perspective changing dream i've ever had. i could feel the bullet holes. i could feel my life draining out of me. i could feel my dad shaking me to hold on and him crying over me. it made me not want to die anymore
it's been so long since i've sat down and analyzed my life. typed it out. spoken about it. written something. it's so hard to just think about it. it always gets jumbled up. i lose the point i orginally started at. gotta have it cemented down. concrete. charted out.
i need to change