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so yet again it has been a while.
Usually things are going well when I don't write. Luckily this entry is a happy entry.
I have been seeing that boy mentioned in my last journal for the past two weeks now. We have gone out six times, all of which have been amazing for their own reason. He is probably one of the greatest guys I have ever found. He is polite, chivalrous, cute, funny, considerate. Things started off really fast and now things are slowing down but it doesn't matter, things are going great.
It is kind of weird. I tend to freak out way before this point and call things off because I am afraid of what tomorrow will bring. It's not like that with him. I want to spend time with him just to spend time with him. We don't have to kiss or do anything for it to be an amazing time (though it is a definite perk). He makes me feel myself. I am actually starting to stop flirting with others. He's all I need. I haven't been as stressed as I normally am. AP US History is killing me but I am not freaking out about it. It's like every time something terribly stressful happens I close my eyes and see him and I feel calm and things don't phase me anymore.
Yesterday we had an amazing moment. I was waiting for him in the choir room, so I was just playing Regina Spektor's Ghost of Corporate Future on the piano. He walks in and I continue playing. He gives me a back rub as I am playing and then when I am finished he kisses the top of my head. I don't know about you but to me that is one of those moments that makes me think, "that is why I am alive."
I wish I could just tell him this. Someday, I hope.
I can't wait to see him tomorrow. :)
Usually things are going well when I don't write. Luckily this entry is a happy entry.
I have been seeing that boy mentioned in my last journal for the past two weeks now. We have gone out six times, all of which have been amazing for their own reason. He is probably one of the greatest guys I have ever found. He is polite, chivalrous, cute, funny, considerate. Things started off really fast and now things are slowing down but it doesn't matter, things are going great.
It is kind of weird. I tend to freak out way before this point and call things off because I am afraid of what tomorrow will bring. It's not like that with him. I want to spend time with him just to spend time with him. We don't have to kiss or do anything for it to be an amazing time (though it is a definite perk). He makes me feel myself. I am actually starting to stop flirting with others. He's all I need. I haven't been as stressed as I normally am. AP US History is killing me but I am not freaking out about it. It's like every time something terribly stressful happens I close my eyes and see him and I feel calm and things don't phase me anymore.
Yesterday we had an amazing moment. I was waiting for him in the choir room, so I was just playing Regina Spektor's Ghost of Corporate Future on the piano. He walks in and I continue playing. He gives me a back rub as I am playing and then when I am finished he kisses the top of my head. I don't know about you but to me that is one of those moments that makes me think, "that is why I am alive."
I wish I could just tell him this. Someday, I hope.
I can't wait to see him tomorrow. :)