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I am at loss of words lately.
so much nothing amongst the the very little truth.
wow.
I just watched The Family Stone...with my parents.
I actually rented a movie and sat down and watched a movie...with MY parents. The Family Stone.
Good movie. ecspecially for us.
The dinner scene about gay people...I felt room tension. I also thought,"good."
thought that gay couple is the epitome of everything I want.
I am so sick and tired of all these homosexuals thinking its cool to party and to go to "Necto". I mean come on.
I mean yeah partying is great and what have you but does anyone look past that? Does anyone see themselves with a future? with a family???
I mean that's all I see. I see my future.
a career. teaching theatre. to kids younger or older then me, it doesn't matter as long as I am teaching the one thing that grabbed a hold of my heart and never let go.
a family. I see commitment. I see a man that won't leave me and who wants to make a family. Adopt. sureget mothers. invetro. 3 different things that are hopes and dreams that we can share. That's what I want.
I keep feeling,"O I am thinking to far ahead I am not enjoying my teens years."
but I am.
I am enjoying things my way, and I know what I want. I mean I am so lucky to be blessed with knowing what I want. To have dreams. To reach for the future.
I have been doing to much shit just for the moment, and though the moment is nice...it's not what I am about.
so i am not looking for a moment man anymore. I am doing the eternal search for THE man.
Into the Woods...song...now.
"If you know what you want,
Then you go and you find it
And you get it--
Do we want a child, or not?
--and you give and you take
And you bid and you bargain,
Or you live to regret it.
There are rights and wrongs and in-betweens--
No one waits when fortune intervenes.
And maybe they're really magic.
Who knows?
Why you do what you do,
That's the point,
All the rest of it is chatter.
If the thing you do is pure in intent,
If it's meant, and it's just a little bent,
Does it matter?
No, what matters is that everyone tells tiny lies--
What's important, really, is the size.
Only three more tries, and we'll have our prize.
When the end's in sight, you'll realize:
If the end is right, it justifies
The beans!"
:)
so much nothing amongst the the very little truth.
wow.
I just watched The Family Stone...with my parents.
I actually rented a movie and sat down and watched a movie...with MY parents. The Family Stone.
Good movie. ecspecially for us.
The dinner scene about gay people...I felt room tension. I also thought,"good."
thought that gay couple is the epitome of everything I want.
I am so sick and tired of all these homosexuals thinking its cool to party and to go to "Necto". I mean come on.
I mean yeah partying is great and what have you but does anyone look past that? Does anyone see themselves with a future? with a family???
I mean that's all I see. I see my future.
a career. teaching theatre. to kids younger or older then me, it doesn't matter as long as I am teaching the one thing that grabbed a hold of my heart and never let go.
a family. I see commitment. I see a man that won't leave me and who wants to make a family. Adopt. sureget mothers. invetro. 3 different things that are hopes and dreams that we can share. That's what I want.
I keep feeling,"O I am thinking to far ahead I am not enjoying my teens years."
but I am.
I am enjoying things my way, and I know what I want. I mean I am so lucky to be blessed with knowing what I want. To have dreams. To reach for the future.
I have been doing to much shit just for the moment, and though the moment is nice...it's not what I am about.
so i am not looking for a moment man anymore. I am doing the eternal search for THE man.
Into the Woods...song...now.
"If you know what you want,
Then you go and you find it
And you get it--
Do we want a child, or not?
--and you give and you take
And you bid and you bargain,
Or you live to regret it.
There are rights and wrongs and in-betweens--
No one waits when fortune intervenes.
And maybe they're really magic.
Who knows?
Why you do what you do,
That's the point,
All the rest of it is chatter.
If the thing you do is pure in intent,
If it's meant, and it's just a little bent,
Does it matter?
No, what matters is that everyone tells tiny lies--
What's important, really, is the size.
Only three more tries, and we'll have our prize.
When the end's in sight, you'll realize:
If the end is right, it justifies
The beans!"
:)