Boo on Homophobia
I've probably dealt with homophobic attitudes in several indirect ways, but now it may have hit close to home. There's a pretty good chance that a couple of people in my life have caught on to my preference in guys, and it really doesn't feel good. It just amazes me that people still hold on to archaic, hateful beliefs, especially when they, as Hispanics, know what it's like to be marginalized. The possibility that people whom I've known for a lifetime can cut you out of their lives with a snap of a finger is disturbing. This makes me think of how my actual (not immediate) family may react.
Sadly, I won't come out to my family in Mexico because they grew up on a foundation of "macho" attitudes. I could barely enjoy my trips when I'm in Tepatitlan and Jalostotitlan because I feel like a fake. Of course, I no longer even acknowledge that I like girls when they ask where my girlfriend is. I simply "don't feel like dating".
I know that true friends are those that stick by one regardless of sexual orientation, but I just can't bare the idea of losing family members whom I love unconditionally.
"The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself." - Anais Nin
Sadly, I won't come out to my family in Mexico because they grew up on a foundation of "macho" attitudes. I could barely enjoy my trips when I'm in Tepatitlan and Jalostotitlan because I feel like a fake. Of course, I no longer even acknowledge that I like girls when they ask where my girlfriend is. I simply "don't feel like dating".
I know that true friends are those that stick by one regardless of sexual orientation, but I just can't bare the idea of losing family members whom I love unconditionally.
"The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself." - Anais Nin