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So haven't posted anything as of late but I wanted to post something today. My head's been feeling scattered and I'm beginning to feel vulnerable again. Some insecurities that I thought were gone are rising up to the surface of my thoughts once again. I was scared but of course, once I realize that this is happening I begin the process of healing once again.
It all started only a few days ago when I began the terrible habit of comparing myself to others. It was as simple as knowing that everyone in my bible study had already experienced a missionary trip here and there and I hadn't (or course, logic doesn't exist in my head and the fact that they were all born-and-raised Christians and I have only been a Christian for a year has nothing to do with anything...). I even pushed myself out of my comfort zone and showed up for some Comedy Improv Workshops; this was mainly because I wanted to grow a bit more on my weaknesses of stage fright and insecurity.
It's going to be a hard process to get myself out of this zone I'm in but it'll happen and I'll be back to my normal and confident self soon enough. It's a character-building thing I'm dealing with right now and I know it's all good for me. lol
Other than that, homework's overwhelming already (more so the stuff that I know is coming in the future) and my social life that was is no longer. lol
Off I go back to study for a Midterm already coming at me next Monday. Peace!
It all started only a few days ago when I began the terrible habit of comparing myself to others. It was as simple as knowing that everyone in my bible study had already experienced a missionary trip here and there and I hadn't (or course, logic doesn't exist in my head and the fact that they were all born-and-raised Christians and I have only been a Christian for a year has nothing to do with anything...). I even pushed myself out of my comfort zone and showed up for some Comedy Improv Workshops; this was mainly because I wanted to grow a bit more on my weaknesses of stage fright and insecurity.
It's going to be a hard process to get myself out of this zone I'm in but it'll happen and I'll be back to my normal and confident self soon enough. It's a character-building thing I'm dealing with right now and I know it's all good for me. lol
Other than that, homework's overwhelming already (more so the stuff that I know is coming in the future) and my social life that was is no longer. lol
Off I go back to study for a Midterm already coming at me next Monday. Peace!