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‘not good’ is pretending to be happy around everyone, because there is no-one left who I talk to.
‘not good’ is loosing it at the simplest things.. anything that reminds me to think.
‘not good’ is trying to use anything to stop me thinking.. which usually works in reverse to start with, which always leads to more.
‘not good’ is a complete lack of motivation, and a complete lack of confidence in my ability to do anything. Nothing seems to work for me lately.
‘not good’ is wanting something I know I may never think I deserve, or really feel.
‘not good’ is constantly missing the one person I really want to see.
‘not good’ is me going backwards rapidly.
‘not good’ is me hiding further within myself, anything real.
Um, I’m going to be up that way tonight. Heat nightclub mostly for the Roni Size show. Just if you are still wanting to avoid seeing me.
‘not good’ is loosing it at the simplest things.. anything that reminds me to think.
‘not good’ is trying to use anything to stop me thinking.. which usually works in reverse to start with, which always leads to more.
‘not good’ is a complete lack of motivation, and a complete lack of confidence in my ability to do anything. Nothing seems to work for me lately.
‘not good’ is wanting something I know I may never think I deserve, or really feel.
‘not good’ is constantly missing the one person I really want to see.
‘not good’ is me going backwards rapidly.
‘not good’ is me hiding further within myself, anything real.
Um, I’m going to be up that way tonight. Heat nightclub mostly for the Roni Size show. Just if you are still wanting to avoid seeing me.