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sometimes when I get back from hanging out witha lot of awesome people and having lots of fun it makes me feel really sad and lonely.
Sometimes being around so many awesome people makes me feel really inadequate and slams me into humility really hard, and while I need that Its painful and makes me long to be loved, accepted and affirmed.
I hate that i'm so worldly and selfish. I build myself up in my mind with a mask of confidence than it all comes crashing down revealing my insecurities.
I don't feel special, I don't feel unique, I feel less than mediocre, I feel sad; and I know feeling these ways is crappy.
Sometimes being around so many awesome people makes me feel really inadequate and slams me into humility really hard, and while I need that Its painful and makes me long to be loved, accepted and affirmed.
I hate that i'm so worldly and selfish. I build myself up in my mind with a mask of confidence than it all comes crashing down revealing my insecurities.
I don't feel special, I don't feel unique, I feel less than mediocre, I feel sad; and I know feeling these ways is crappy.