Sighing only brings bad breath
"You have such an optimistic glow about you ever since you came back from leave..."
-Aaron Lee refferring to my new found attitude of "Go get em" and "Its the summer of Adam!"
I have a few reasons to be happy.
1. I quite smoking.
2. I have started a pretty nice workout plan and feel very positive about it
3. I have a great girlfriend and a friend who is a girl (same person, but shhh)
4. I have been dealing nice with both my anger and depression problem
5. I have some awesome taste in music
6. I'm in love with Whitney Byrd
7. Whitney Byrd loves me too
It still feels weird saying that last one. I've never doubted my feelings for someone else. But I have always doubted (or did for a long time) the words of whatever gal happens to be dating me. I guess I took alot of breakups personally (well, two really) and they still stick with me (to a point.) But, I don't feel stupid when I say "She loves me." Because even if we stopped dating I wouldn't doubt she loves me. Though I would be sad, and very well should be, I wouldn't despair because we aren't compromising things.
I think I am coming to be able to respect people for their abilities and insights, rather than be jealous of them. Like my friends who are going to college and performing quite well, I was jealous. I felt that had my parents pushed me at a younger age I would have known better, before it was too late. But, I think I've learned how to say "Good job" and mean it. Besides, its not too late. Hell, I got it better than they do! Full-time job, salary, college assistance, and my job will give me more money if I have a family. Yet I still find that green monster nipping at my toes. So whats to do? I guess if I honestly wish for the things they have I should work for it. Nice body, ability to play a musical instrument, and the sort is not something we wish for. We work for it.
Of course, its easy to try and find out worth IN those things. But I am still coming around to the idea that God is the one who gives us worth, AS A HUMAN. But does he give us worth as, say, an athlete? Or how about a musician? I don't think so. I believe playing well and creatively gives you worth as those two. But as far as humanity goes, yep, God supplies the worth.
Um...I'm out!
-Aaron Lee refferring to my new found attitude of "Go get em" and "Its the summer of Adam!"
I have a few reasons to be happy.
1. I quite smoking.
2. I have started a pretty nice workout plan and feel very positive about it
3. I have a great girlfriend and a friend who is a girl (same person, but shhh)
4. I have been dealing nice with both my anger and depression problem
5. I have some awesome taste in music
6. I'm in love with Whitney Byrd
7. Whitney Byrd loves me too
It still feels weird saying that last one. I've never doubted my feelings for someone else. But I have always doubted (or did for a long time) the words of whatever gal happens to be dating me. I guess I took alot of breakups personally (well, two really) and they still stick with me (to a point.) But, I don't feel stupid when I say "She loves me." Because even if we stopped dating I wouldn't doubt she loves me. Though I would be sad, and very well should be, I wouldn't despair because we aren't compromising things.
I think I am coming to be able to respect people for their abilities and insights, rather than be jealous of them. Like my friends who are going to college and performing quite well, I was jealous. I felt that had my parents pushed me at a younger age I would have known better, before it was too late. But, I think I've learned how to say "Good job" and mean it. Besides, its not too late. Hell, I got it better than they do! Full-time job, salary, college assistance, and my job will give me more money if I have a family. Yet I still find that green monster nipping at my toes. So whats to do? I guess if I honestly wish for the things they have I should work for it. Nice body, ability to play a musical instrument, and the sort is not something we wish for. We work for it.
Of course, its easy to try and find out worth IN those things. But I am still coming around to the idea that God is the one who gives us worth, AS A HUMAN. But does he give us worth as, say, an athlete? Or how about a musician? I don't think so. I believe playing well and creatively gives you worth as those two. But as far as humanity goes, yep, God supplies the worth.
Um...I'm out!