"baby ur all that i want, when im lyin here in ur arms, im findin it hard to believe were in heaven"
wow. tonight was awesome. like really, the best night in a long time and i didnt even do anything that special.
chris picked me up around 7:30 and we went and met mikey and kate at his house. hung out there for a little bit.
then me and chris went and met up with huckle and got some fantastic stuff and then we swung by his house and went back to mikeys.
we hung out there for a little, looking up movie times and what not. then the three of us left for bellingham and saw land of the dead which was really good. we went back to mikeys after and smoked and chatted and everything.
me and chris left mikeys around 1:30 and i came home and bascily waited for him to get home so i could call him.
and now its about 5:30am...and YES ive been on the phone with my christopher since 2am. were having a swell time.
weve been reading our wicked old poetry and notes and everything and its so weird.
im gunna include some of my old poems. theyre not really any good, i just think its interesting to see what i was thinking 8th gradeish time.
but yeah, basicly last night and tonight were 2 of the greatest nights of the summer so far. im not sure why.
tonight was absoluetly awesome though. me, chris, and mikey had a swell time, as always. :)
and now here are some ‘Blast From The Past’ poems of mine from forever ago... and even though theyre pretty bad, and childish and immature. comment. and give me feedback. i think its really interesting to read these and look back.
there were 3 poems that really had an impact on me tonight, that made me realize how much certain things have affected me. but unfortunetly, theyre way too personal for me to feel the slightest bit comfortable posting here.
but if your one of my kiddies, and you really wanna know, let me know. i like the feedback, esp on these. i can almost look at these and see why so much of my personality is the way that it is.
#1)
i used to like this one, but i kinda dont anymore. the point behind it all is kinda interesting.
Warped And Twisted
one slip, and down the hole i fall,
it seems, to take, no time, at all
I always seem, to know a million ways,
to always pick, the wrong things to say
eyes are open, hands are fisted
deep down inside, im Warped And Twisted.
so many tricks, and so many lies,
too many when’s, and too many why’s
nobody’s special, nobody’s gifted.
im just me, sitting here, Warped And Twisted.
sleeping awake, and choking on a dream,
listening loudly, to a silent scream,
call my mind, the numbers unlisted,
wrapped in something, Warped And Twisted.
on my knees, alive but dead
bleeding the invisible blood ive bled,
im not gone, my mind has just drifted,
dont expect much, im Warped And Twisted.
burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow,
today’s just yesterday’s oblivious tomorrow,
the sun died out, the ashes sifted,
im still here, Warped And Twisted.
#2)
okay, i HATE the way this is written. its way too childish, immature and everything. but the actual thought behind it is interesting because this basicly says the 10 things i thought were worth living for when i was younger.
10 Reasons To Live
I know that there are things, tucked in the back of my mind
there are 10 reasons to live, 10 reasons ill try to find.
i was told number 10 is laughter, it cures your empty, aching heart
it heals you when you lonely, and feel like your tearing apart.
i overheard number 9 is happiness, which i have yet to truly see
it helps you cheer up others, and you feel completely free.
i think number 8 is friendship, it makes you feel complete
and when you find a true friend, the devil you have to beat.
i read number 7 is peacefulness, something the world is yet to find
some people have peace in their bodies, while others have peace in their mind
i believe number 6 is faithfulness, which is something i have lost
it brings you close to friends, and has absolutely no cost.
i was told number 5 is freedom, i know i took advantage of it
i was set off like a flame, a match that was just lit.
i heard number 4 is trust, some people dont know what this word means
someone said it gives you friends, a shoulder upon you to lean.
i think that number 3 is love, it fills up your heart with joy
but if you happen to abuse it, youll be played with like a toy.
i understand number 2 is lessons, important things you may learn
yet, make too many mistakes and your heart and soul may burn.
finnaly number 1 is life itself, you must take it for all its worth,
always live it to its fullest, to slow you death from your birth.
those 10 things i know they are there
sitting silent and stagnant in my mind
but that is where theyll have to stay
until one who understands i find.
chris picked me up around 7:30 and we went and met mikey and kate at his house. hung out there for a little bit.
then me and chris went and met up with huckle and got some fantastic stuff and then we swung by his house and went back to mikeys.
we hung out there for a little, looking up movie times and what not. then the three of us left for bellingham and saw land of the dead which was really good. we went back to mikeys after and smoked and chatted and everything.
me and chris left mikeys around 1:30 and i came home and bascily waited for him to get home so i could call him.
and now its about 5:30am...and YES ive been on the phone with my christopher since 2am. were having a swell time.
weve been reading our wicked old poetry and notes and everything and its so weird.
im gunna include some of my old poems. theyre not really any good, i just think its interesting to see what i was thinking 8th gradeish time.
but yeah, basicly last night and tonight were 2 of the greatest nights of the summer so far. im not sure why.
tonight was absoluetly awesome though. me, chris, and mikey had a swell time, as always. :)
and now here are some ‘Blast From The Past’ poems of mine from forever ago... and even though theyre pretty bad, and childish and immature. comment. and give me feedback. i think its really interesting to read these and look back.
there were 3 poems that really had an impact on me tonight, that made me realize how much certain things have affected me. but unfortunetly, theyre way too personal for me to feel the slightest bit comfortable posting here.
but if your one of my kiddies, and you really wanna know, let me know. i like the feedback, esp on these. i can almost look at these and see why so much of my personality is the way that it is.
#1)
i used to like this one, but i kinda dont anymore. the point behind it all is kinda interesting.
Warped And Twisted
one slip, and down the hole i fall,
it seems, to take, no time, at all
I always seem, to know a million ways,
to always pick, the wrong things to say
eyes are open, hands are fisted
deep down inside, im Warped And Twisted.
so many tricks, and so many lies,
too many when’s, and too many why’s
nobody’s special, nobody’s gifted.
im just me, sitting here, Warped And Twisted.
sleeping awake, and choking on a dream,
listening loudly, to a silent scream,
call my mind, the numbers unlisted,
wrapped in something, Warped And Twisted.
on my knees, alive but dead
bleeding the invisible blood ive bled,
im not gone, my mind has just drifted,
dont expect much, im Warped And Twisted.
burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow,
today’s just yesterday’s oblivious tomorrow,
the sun died out, the ashes sifted,
im still here, Warped And Twisted.
#2)
okay, i HATE the way this is written. its way too childish, immature and everything. but the actual thought behind it is interesting because this basicly says the 10 things i thought were worth living for when i was younger.
10 Reasons To Live
I know that there are things, tucked in the back of my mind
there are 10 reasons to live, 10 reasons ill try to find.
i was told number 10 is laughter, it cures your empty, aching heart
it heals you when you lonely, and feel like your tearing apart.
i overheard number 9 is happiness, which i have yet to truly see
it helps you cheer up others, and you feel completely free.
i think number 8 is friendship, it makes you feel complete
and when you find a true friend, the devil you have to beat.
i read number 7 is peacefulness, something the world is yet to find
some people have peace in their bodies, while others have peace in their mind
i believe number 6 is faithfulness, which is something i have lost
it brings you close to friends, and has absolutely no cost.
i was told number 5 is freedom, i know i took advantage of it
i was set off like a flame, a match that was just lit.
i heard number 4 is trust, some people dont know what this word means
someone said it gives you friends, a shoulder upon you to lean.
i think that number 3 is love, it fills up your heart with joy
but if you happen to abuse it, youll be played with like a toy.
i understand number 2 is lessons, important things you may learn
yet, make too many mistakes and your heart and soul may burn.
finnaly number 1 is life itself, you must take it for all its worth,
always live it to its fullest, to slow you death from your birth.
those 10 things i know they are there
sitting silent and stagnant in my mind
but that is where theyll have to stay
until one who understands i find.