Geez...
Ugh! It is so frustrating that every time I get online and get on facebook I see that someone else is married or engaged or about to have a baby. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for all of them, but I'm also jealous. I shouldn't be; I personally am not ready to be any of those things.
Maybe it's because I'm too immature. Maybe it's because I don't know what I want. Maybe it's because I'm scared of hurting people. Maybe it's because I'm not in a serious relationship with anyone. Regardless, I'm not ready now.
But still, seeing everyone so happy makes me feel inadequate. It isn't enough that I'm doing what I want. It isn't enough that I'll become the veterinarian that I've wanted to be so badly. Why should I be so career oriented right now? After all, it's not my ultimate goal in life; my ultimate goal is family. This is just one step along the way, but it's a step that's going to take so much of me.
I guess I'm just scared to be alone. If I go to one of these schools that's in a small town, then I'm not going to see many guys at all...since vet school students are about 70% female.
I know it's stupid, but still.
At the rate of things on facebook, who won't be married in 4 years when I graduate? Or 7?
What if I really do become an old lady with cats?
Maybe it's because I'm too immature. Maybe it's because I don't know what I want. Maybe it's because I'm scared of hurting people. Maybe it's because I'm not in a serious relationship with anyone. Regardless, I'm not ready now.
But still, seeing everyone so happy makes me feel inadequate. It isn't enough that I'm doing what I want. It isn't enough that I'll become the veterinarian that I've wanted to be so badly. Why should I be so career oriented right now? After all, it's not my ultimate goal in life; my ultimate goal is family. This is just one step along the way, but it's a step that's going to take so much of me.
I guess I'm just scared to be alone. If I go to one of these schools that's in a small town, then I'm not going to see many guys at all...since vet school students are about 70% female.
I know it's stupid, but still.
At the rate of things on facebook, who won't be married in 4 years when I graduate? Or 7?
What if I really do become an old lady with cats?