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fireworks/dinner/friends in ptown tonight was fun. easy, relaxing, good. i fell asleep in the carride home and it was nice. i miss sleeping in cars.
i have been extremely mia with a lot of people/places in my life. i'm sorry. i try to balance it all but sometimes it doesn't work. i hope none of you think i'm not thinking about you. just sometimes shit gets in the way.
yesterday i was rushing to get ready for work and i was frustrated about a bunch of little things but this was enough to make me start crying. is that weird? i dont know why it happened but it did and then that was that and i went to work. i'm usually not really moody like that. i was mean to my mom and that's the last thing in the world she needs. whatever.
i've recently considered getting rid of everything pertaining the internet, minus email because that's rather important. i enjoy browsing the INTERWEB to a degree but sometimes i think it's too addicting. i dont like that. i will never understand how people are comfortable with being so reliant on something that they can not stop. i think i try to stop myself before that shit happens.
i get the feeling that i'm about to drastically screw something up or create something beautiful out of this. i don't know where it will go but i'm going to try to not run away from it completely.
road trips will hopefully be a breath of fresh air. why am i stressed out? balancing too many things at once.
i've been exercising so much...running, biking, swimming. eating not much at all because there just isnt anything to eat and yet i feel the same. why? sigh.
i have been extremely mia with a lot of people/places in my life. i'm sorry. i try to balance it all but sometimes it doesn't work. i hope none of you think i'm not thinking about you. just sometimes shit gets in the way.
yesterday i was rushing to get ready for work and i was frustrated about a bunch of little things but this was enough to make me start crying. is that weird? i dont know why it happened but it did and then that was that and i went to work. i'm usually not really moody like that. i was mean to my mom and that's the last thing in the world she needs. whatever.
i've recently considered getting rid of everything pertaining the internet, minus email because that's rather important. i enjoy browsing the INTERWEB to a degree but sometimes i think it's too addicting. i dont like that. i will never understand how people are comfortable with being so reliant on something that they can not stop. i think i try to stop myself before that shit happens.
i get the feeling that i'm about to drastically screw something up or create something beautiful out of this. i don't know where it will go but i'm going to try to not run away from it completely.
road trips will hopefully be a breath of fresh air. why am i stressed out? balancing too many things at once.
i've been exercising so much...running, biking, swimming. eating not much at all because there just isnt anything to eat and yet i feel the same. why? sigh.