One single fact
If you could find out one single fact about every person you met, what fact would you want to know, and why?The happiest moment in their life. I know, that makes me sound like a total sap, but see, I get to know most of the other crap anyway. When you meet people - well, when I meet them, or did during the majority of my life - it's in a fighting
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To: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Forget it.
Not Kara. I mean, I still think you're too old for her, but just for the record, I happen to know a guy who fell for a teenager and was several hundred centuries older and it would have been so useful to know that when everyone was freaking out about me and Cordy, but I only found out two months ago, so you're pretty normal in comparison. But forget all the apology stuff because you're reminding me more and more of Angel by the minute, and that freaks me out. It's not your fault that the media is totally insane.
re: Kara: haven't heard from her directly since, but that's normal. She doesn't talk with me most of the time unless she needs to lecture me on how I should behave towards, well, my parents. But I checked out her journal, and she was busy telling Warren what an idiot I was in an unlocked thread, so I figure she's alright. Warren also has the totally bizarre impression I'm in love with her. What part of "I already have a girlfriend, and I'm not into younger girls who are sort of my sisters" doesn't he understand? But yes, if I had known what a day it had been I would have done stuff differently. See, about Kara and me: I find her irritating as hell sometimes (and how you can stand the teacup whining is beyond me), but I don't want anything bad happen to her. She's family. The whole disaster yesterday was me trying to protect her.
There was something said during the I Never game? I don't recall.
Re: new scandal. Well, the current husband of my first love is making an utter idiot of himself and managed to drive her to tears, I hear, and he's living in New York. If you want to slap him silly, that would a) be great, and b) do the trick, because he's Orlando Bloom.
For the record, that was a joke. You know, Osborn, I still have a headache and I just know my girlfriend will have plenty to say to me when she gets home, but thanks to a second set of memories I've learned that life is such a crazy bitch that we need to have a sense of humour about it. So chill, okay?
Regards,
Connor (of three surnames)
(and for the record, "wonder boy" is not one of them)
P.S. But if you want to take the Orlando Bloom suggestion seriously, be my guest.
P.P.S. If a girl named Mere Riley contacts you, never, ever return her calls, emails, or whatever, no matter what reason she gives for her call/email/whatever, okay?
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From: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Your first love was Cordelia Chase?
Thanks for the tip about the age difference between a certain centuries old guy and the teenager he was once in love with. I don't think I will be able to use that to my advantage though because it's different when some guy is trying to date your almost daughter. Honestly, if he had been cool about things when we stepped off the plane that would have freaked me out. I don't disagree with what he had to say me. I just didn't see the benefit of debating with him when I had a hangover. I am nothing like him. Well. I think he uses as much gel as I do, but that is about it.
For what it's worth, I knew you weren't sixteen and it does suck for both of us that the papers seem to want to assume you are. However they are offering an award for your identity and if you have any enemies or casual acquaintances looking for a quick pay off, they'll probably sell you out. The bonus side of this is that this will clear up your age. The bad side, you're going to look like a perv just as much as I do. And that is kind if sick because you and Kara fight like siblings. I didn't see an attraction between the two of you at all. If anything there was the tension...anyway. I'm glad she's alright. Just a tip maybe you should lay off insulting her fighting abilities. She threw you across the room without breaking a nail so I think maybe if someone worked with her she might be able to kick your ass in a rematch. Please don't say teacups again. Like ever. I'm still confused about that.
Re: New scandal. Dude. You and Cordelia Chase? Huh. I didn't get to say anything to her when she was at the airport to meet us, but I was a little surprised that she assumed you and Kara got married. I guess it makes more sense now that she jumped to that conclusion. I don't know Orlando Bloom but I could boycott his movies if that helps. As for bitch slapping him? I tend to only do that in public places when I'm drunk. Maybe I'll see what I can do about attending the next Hollywood function that isn't held in California because that state is off limits.
See there you go with making the assumptions about me again, Wonderboy. I have an excellent sense of humor. I was laughing the entire time I gave the interview to the Globe about how you've been my big hidden love for some time but that you weren't feeling secure enough with your sexuality to come out of the closet which is why you reacted so badly when your current teenage girlfriend caught us in the hotel suite together. Believe it or not that was one of the proposed scenarios my board wishes to have me release to the press. Like I'm going to claim openly that you and I are dating. It would be clear to everyone that you are much too pretty a boy to date a washed up rich boy punk like me.
Chilled,
Harry.
Ps. I will keep that in mind. Wonderboy is catchier than Connor.
P.P.S. Consider it done.
P.P.P.S What do you know about ghosts? I get that the other stuff exists, but that means ghosts have to exist too right? Because ghosts would be a lot easier to deal with than the fact that maybe I've lost my mind and am hallucinating when it comes to seeing and hearing my father in the penthouse. Not to mention that fun family chat that I had last night. Talking to a ghost has to be more sane than talking to a hallucination.
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To: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Our Very Secret Affair
I didn't feel like debating with him when I had a hangover myself, so I get that. Though "debating" is kind of a euphemism for the way these things usually go.
Identity: well, so much for my anonymity then. Tucker Wells is the first who comes to mind. Have you meet him yet? Kara's sort of idol - platonic, don't sweat - and he tends to either yell at people or amaze them with moments of actually interesting conversation. Works for Evil Incorporated for a living these days.
Kara's fighting abilities: tactics, man, tactics. I told her she should train with Angel, but does she listen? No. She doesn't train at all. And she really should. Because she has all that potential. I once met a Slayer in her prime, and she was awesome. She would have wiped the floor with me in the hotel. Kara could become that, but she's lazy and she's sloppy, and if she doesn't get her act together that is going to get her killed one day, because vampires don't joke around, and they get a real kick out of killing a Slayer. So I insult her fighting abilities until she's angry enough to train like a madwoman just so she can show me.
Great. Now you've reminded me Cordy was at the airport. I had hoped that was a post-drinking binge hallucination. Of all the people to see me like this... But yes. It was some time ago and ended really badly. (Through external circumstances; too complicated to explain.) But we're still in contact, and she's one of the best people I know. She had so much grief in her life and was so happy with the guy that I can't stand seeing him squander that and throw it back in her face.
Like I'm going to claim openly that you and I are dating.
You realize that practically begs for the question whether you're going to claim it privately, don't you? But okay, you've made your point. You have a sense of humor. (Not that my teenage girlfriend wouldn't have killed you personally with her pinkie if you had given that interview.) No comment on your looks or mine because I told you whom you remind me of, which incidentally indicates aesthetic approval, and "pretty" is even worse than "sixteen".
Busy preparing dinner in an attempt to mollify expected non-teenage-girlfriend,
Connor
P.P.P.S. Cordelia used to have one in her old apartment, or so she told me. Haven't been there, so I haven't met him. He communicated through telekinesis, though. And... okay. I once talked to one. My mother. My very dead mother. (Who is now alive again, but that's another story. You didn't ask about resurrections.) Right before I made the crappiest decision of my life which I still can't regret completely, because I can't wish Jasmine not having been born. I loved her. I still love her.
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From: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: You are my best kept secret (cept kind of public now)
I learned a long time ago it's better to just stand there and take whatever they have to say especially if they are even remotely right. I was impressed though. No one has quite berated my character the way Angel did since my father died.
Identity: No we haven't met. I know that she is fond of him, but I have to admit I'm slightly jealous of the place he has in her heart. Majorly jealous. I have a feeling after he sees our scandal he'll either hunt me down or work over time to make sure our paths continue not to cross.
Kara's fighting abilities: It's too bad you don't live closer. I think you two could spends hours daily kicking each other's asses.
Cordelia: It's good that you guys can still be friends. MJ and I really don't talk anymore. Don't even get me started on Peter. Maybe Bloom will come to his senses and stop screwing things up with her. Cordelia strikes me as a hard woman to let go of.
Our secret affair: Now, Connor, if you want to know what I claim privately about our relationship you'll simply have to break into my penthouse and find my secret journal. Or wait for the book release. I can't continue to comment on your looks because as you stated she could kill me with her pinky. However pretty was not an insult.
Ghosts of dead parents past: Okay then maybe I don't feel so insane now. Obviously this is something I'd prefer to keep between us, but every now and then my father gets restless and feels the need to appear to speak with me. Last night was one of those nights. Apparently our scandal can wake the dead. Who knew?
Hope you remembered to buy her flowers too,
Harry
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To: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Everyone who could write a tell-all as well, it seems.
He's good at that. Even more so when he's lost his soul or you've locked him under the sea for three months. If you've learned how to stand and take it, though, you're a step ahead of me. Until about two years ago, I either got into a fight or just left. These days, I'm working on the verbal confrontation thing.
Tucker Wells: just contacted me and told me he's getting drunk because of the California news. Considering what that resulted in with us, I don't see why he thinks that's a good idea, but hey, I don't get the guy most of the time. He's seriously protective of Kara, though. I first thought it was all an act, but when she was in trouble some months ago... well, anyway, I changed my mind. He's been a really good friend to her. Though now he behaves like a jealous boyfriend, which I don't get, either, since he had his chance and went for someone else instead.
Training with Kara: actually, that would be great. Don't tell her or anyone else, because they'll know whom I mean, but I've missed sparring with someone at full strength. Anyway, I really can't leave Los Angeles, and she's bound to Boston, so that's that.
Cordelia and Bloom the ungrateful idiot: I hope so.
Being friends with exes: it's tricky. I don't really talk with Tracy, either. Though that's partly because I'm not sure how much of our relationship was due to a spell and how much really happened. I have the suspicion it works with Cordy because she's more mature than most people I know. And because I fell in love with someone else as well. Because I know I didn't handle it well two years ago when - anyway. Who is Peter?
An Affair To Remember: how come you get the book release after already getting the Globe interview? Who is the millionaire here? If anyone should go for the crass commercial exploitation of that hidden romance, it should be me. Trust me, being a P.I. for supernatural cases and having three people to support doesn't exactly cover one with riches.
A challenge is a challenge, though. You do realize penthouses in New York by prominent citizens are way easier to find and break in than hotel rooms?
Dead Parents Walking: have you considered exorcism? This, for the record, isn't a joke. I'm currently busy going through the files Angel my predessor left for me, and that kind of thing seems to work if done properly. That is, if you want to get rid of the ghost. Do you? Because even when I hated my father's guts I used to sneak back every now and then to the Hyperion and watch him and his friends for a while. So I'd get it if you don't.
Excellent point. Though she might smack me for the flowers; sometimes she hates being treated like a girl, and sometimes she doesn't. Off to buy flowers,
Connor
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From: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: I'll let you have first dibs on the talk show circuit and radio interviews
There was no fighting back when it came to my father. It was either stand there and take it or have him shut you completely out for weeks or months until he thought you've learned your lesson and decided to bless you with his attention again. I always preferred to be berated as opposed to ignored.
Tucker: Yeah. I haven't met him and I'm all for anyone who looks out for Kara. That said, I don't see Tucker and me ever exchanging emails that border on friendly, you know? I can understand why he would want her, but it's too late. He let her go and I have no intention of stepping aside for him or anyone else. Kara is amazing and I get that it's probably something you don't want to hear, but she's the type of person who has layers and you have to accept all the layers because they make up this girl who is stellar.
Training: I really don't understand the slayer thing or the vampire stuff. All I know is the stuff from movies and who knows how accurate that is. Considering that Kara didn't tell me about any of it, I'm going to take a guess it's not a subject she wishes to discuss. I hope she'll train with someone because I care too much about her to have her be taken down by a vampire or anything else.
the ex factor: MJ and I broke up when she chose to be with Peter while we were still together. I tried not to hold it against them, despite the fact she was my girlfriend and he was my best friend. Of course she never held the fact that I had more than friendly feelings for Peter against me so I sort of owed her. She was supposed to get married a few months back but she ditched her wedding to go back to Pete. Peter was my best friend and we had a complicated relationship. He has enhanced abilities as well and long story short, he and my father had secret identities that ended with Peter having to take my dad out. I could have forgiven him had he been honest with me, but he covered up my dad's secrets and left me with the body to deal with on my own. I begged him to tell me the truth about who killed my father and why, and he never fessed up. When I found out everything I couldn't deal with him so we don't speak anymore. How hard is it for you to deal with two separate sets of memories? I'd think it would be pretty crowded inside your head.
Behind closed doors: Well, that's because I'm the publicity whore, Wonder boy. Haven't you figured that out yet? I'm a nice guy though and believe in spoiling those I am involved with so you can have the profits, ok? You take care of three people? I'm guessing one is your girlfriend, who is the other?
You mean I never gave you a key to my place? What the hell was I thinking? I'm sure you will use your special abilities to climb up the wall and sneak through a window. Careful though, I sleep with a gun near by and have been known to shoot first and grieve later.
What Daddy issues?: Yeah. I've considered it. Fantasized about it. Can't seem to do it yet. I'll keep you in mind if you're offering to let me hire you. If these emails ever get released people will think you are my rent boy. We had a complicated and dysfunctional relationship to say the least, but he was my dad. My mom died when I was pretty young and i'm a only child so. I used to want to be just like him and then I found out his secrets and my biggest fear is I'm more like him than I'm comfortable with.
All girls like to be treated like ladies even when they punch you in the arm for doing so,
Harry.
P.S. I think the scandal has been neutralized.
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To: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Renegotiations.
And here I thought between three different fathers and a stepfather wannabe (i.e. annoying hanger-on of my mother), I had it covered. At least none of mine gave me the silent treatment to teach me lessonsunless the getting kicked out because of the three months under the sea and later because of Cordy counts. Sorry, man.
Tucker: I see he's being a dick to Kara now in her journal. Sheesh. He's older than both of us, if you can believe that, and I know I'm not exactly Mr. Maturity myself, but at least I never threw a fit on the lines of "how dare you have a toy when I'm the only one supposed to have one". Look, just give me plausible deniability about you and Kara, okay? I meant it when I said you should marry and retire to the Fijis, because that would be way better for her than hanging around us lot, but that doesn't mean I can encourage you to do that now when she's still sixteen. No matter how many layers she has.
Personal soap operas: Cordelia couldn't make up her mind for a while (thought that wasn't her fault, as I found out later, but that's another freaky story) between... someone else and me and kept changing it, so I know a bit about how that must have sucked for you. Now Peter is the one who sounds a bit like Angel. Actually like all my fathers. Getting lied at "for your own good" is just infuriating, and the worst thing about it is that you start to join the liar club yourself and do the same thing sooner or later. Two sets of memories being a case in point. Though they keep me from committing suicide, I guess, so I suppose I'm grateful.
Future Source of Profit: I knew there was a reason why I didn't want to come out of the closet to begin with. At least tell me you're not going to tell Ophra how I originally proposed, Osborn.
No.3 is the father who actually raised me. He came back from the dead just recently (don't ask), and that gives me another chance to make things right for him. His life was pretty much ruined by my natural parents and he sort of killed himself because of me, so that's a not so minor miracle and really, really important.
So do you get nightly visits by people who climb up the wall on a regular basis just so you can practice your aim? And here I thought I was special.
Hamlet Senior: your choice, and yes, that was an offer. My mother - the not-vampiric-one - thinks that already, without hacking into my correspondance. I spent most of the drive from Monterey back to Los Angeles trying to convince her on the phone that "detective" isn't a euphemism for rent boy. My sister Mere just thinks you'll forget all about me if you meet her. I'll check out the local clergy and shamans in case you change your mind.
Neutralized scandal: okay. All kidding aside. On the one hand, thanks. I do appreciate it, and I'm sure Kara does. On the other... Wolfram & Hart is bad news. As in: major bad news. That Slayer I mentioned who would have wiped the floor with me? They tried to hire her as an assassin once. The first time I visited their building because I had some questions, they tried to vivisect me. And the reason why I'm walking around with a double set of memories is because they offered Angel a deal which ended up getting most of his co-workers killed. So be careful, okay? And whatever you do, keep Kara away from them as far as possible.
Worried,
Connor
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To: abetterlie@livejournal.com
Subject: Which of your surnames do I take or are you going for Connor Osborn?
It could have been worse and I know this. Ouch on the kicking out. Mostly my father just kept sending me to boarding schools to be done with me and then I'd promptly get kicked out. After five schools he had no choice but to let me live at home and I attended public school for my senior year.
Tucker: I had to restrain myself from commenting to him in her journal because frankly as long as she wishes to handle it on her own, it's her business and not mine. I'm trying to be respectful of their relationship, but there is no reason for him to be a jackass to her. You'd think he was the jilted boyfriend and not the guy who is just sulking because Kara decided to stop waiting around for him to pat her on the head. I really don't like the guy. I'm not going to propose to a sixteen year girl, girlfriend or not. I'm into her, but trust me I'm working on restraint. Kara is worth waiting for. That's all I really have to say about it.
I created my own prison: Yeah that had to bite. You said your dad kicked you out after Cordy...he wasn't the other guy was he? So since we're being straight with each other I will own up to the fact that I only dated MJ to catch Peter's attention. He loved her from the day they first met each other back when they were kids. He wouldn't make a more on me her so I did what every rich kid who thinks they own the world does. I made my move. Maybe she loves him, I don't know. I will say I can't think of two people more deserving of each other than MJ and Peter. All I ever wanted was the truth. If he'd stayed with me that night when I caught him, wearing the mask, dropping off my father's body, things would have been different. He broke my trust and I don't know. Like I said. They deserve each other.
An engagement party to plan: I would never spill the intimate details of the night you swept my off my feet by proposing. That is our secret, wonder boy, until the day you try and leave me for another and I need to get my vengeance on.
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You'd be surprised. Doctor Octavious showed up once and held me over the balcony to force me to do his bidding. Good times. Peter can crawl up walls too. You're still special, wonder boy. No need to get insecure.
Father Figure: Speaking of shamans. Ok. I need to talk to someone about this and this is going to sound sad and pathetic, but you're pretty much my only friend that I could talk to. I trust you with it but I ask that you keep it between us until I figure out how to bring this up to Kara. I came across Kara talking to that shaman kid, that looks like you, Mike.
Apparently past versions of me in other dimensions have died because they decided to listen to their father's spirits or whatever telling them avenge their death by killing Peter. I had the chance to kill Peter the night I took off the mask and I couldn't. It's Pete. I may hate him, but it's Pete.
Apparently in these dimensions my father has a bad history of not staying dead either. Fuck. I am sure you can imagine that this sudden influx of information is freaking me out. I won't experiment with his drugs. Especially since I've been told that is how the other versions of me snapped with a mental break down, killed people and then died from the poison of said green goo drugs.
Mike suggested I get rid of it...but here is the thing Connor and you're probably going to flip out or whatever, but I'm kind of hoping maybe you understand. The night I found out about Pete he didn't tell me why he killed my dad. I let him go anyway. That's the night my dad decided to appear to me and demand I avenge him and when I tried to get him to leave me alone I stumbled into his secret lab.
All my life I thought that OsCorp was his legacy but then suddenly I am looking at the Green Goblin mask and a lab full of enhancement drugs and weapons and that fucking glider. I knew then why Peter had to kill him. I also knew that it had been my father who tried to kill me that day. I couldn't destroy the lab for a variety of reasons. The biggest two being, 1-I know nothing about this stuff. I was the worst possible student when it came to Science and I was afraid if I tried to burn it down or whatever that I would just end up doing more harm than good by poisoning the water supply or blowing up half of NY. 2- It's all I had left of the real him. It's a reminder of my genetics and what could happen if I ever let myself forget there are consequences to my actions. It's all I have left of him.
What do I do, man? Do I trust the new law firm to dispose of things? Because if you are right and they are shady, which I believe because no one has that much power without having ulterior means, couldn't they just use it to create their own successor to the green goblin mask? I can trust them with my money and cleaning up a couple of scandals, but this stuff can kill people, has killed people, and I can't take it on my conscience. Any advice would be appreciated.
Kara heard enough from Mike that she probably thinks she's dating a monster. I'm just waiting for her to confront me with what she found out.
New legal representation: I won't get too involved with them. They're just handling the OsCorp stuff and well I don't really care all that much about the business. Long story. I'll keep everything you'd told me in mind though.
Hoping the serial killer need for world domination gene skips a generation,
Harry
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To: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: Why can’t we take a new name altogether, like Summers?
Though I’m becoming somewhat fond of Osborn. No, the first one was kind of an anticlimax, because I was expecting him to kill me. I had dreamt about that all summer. It was the second one that stung. Just out of curiosity, what are boarding schools like? The guy who provided me with happy-go-lucky memories had absolutely no intel on that, and there weren’t any where I actually grew up. Were you trying to get kicked out or did that sort of happen?
Tucker: my thoughts precisely. Just be careful of any rats in the near future. He can do some conjuring tricks, and that’s how he retaliated against my mother’s annoying hanger-on, only the guy who actually got bitten was his lawyer. (The hanger-on’s lawyer, not Tucker’s.)
Screwed-up relationships: in the interest of owning up, I’m going off strike here. Yes, Angel was the other guy. Not that he actually ever dated Cordy (as far as I know). But he was in love with her back then. She was also his best friend, and whether or not she was in love with him I don’t know, she never told me. But as I said before, she was the first woman I ever fell in love with, and just when I thought I’d never have a chance, she - well. You know. Anyway. Considering what you told me, there are some weird parallels there, between you and Angel, again. And Cordy and Peter, perhaps. I don’t know him, but just for the record, Angel almost killed Cordelia, but didn’t, and now they’re friends again.
Speaking of weird parallels, though: the other woman I fell in love with - other than Tracy, who was the girlfriend I got courtesy of a W&H sorceror and his fake memories - used to be in love with my other father. And before you say anything, I don’t know what it is with me and my relations and the people who date them. I truly don’t. Did I mention we’re all pretty screwed up?
Hell Hath No Fury: I should have guessed your millionaire types are all possessive. But okay, I’ll try to say monogamous.
Profit: If they actually give you that kind of money for printing the insanity - yes, sure. I’ll soon have to pay for college myself anyway, and so it could come really handy. Am curious what Kara says about splitting it, though.
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from: H.Osborn@oscorp.net
Subject: How about Keating just for the sense of irony?
The question is have you grown fond of being called wonder boy yet? I can see why that would sting. I never got kicked out. My father could be in the same room and pretend I didn't exist. He was pretty talented. Boarding schools are like college in a way except you know those rich frat boy types that you probably wanted to kick the shit out of? 90% of the people in boarding schools are that type. I'm serious. Mostly it was a bunch of rich punks with a sense of entitlement and more daddy and mommy issues than you can imagine. I purposely got myself kicked out because I kept thinking he'd want me to stay. It took five schools for him to give up. Point set match to me.
Tucker: I'm standing back and letting him make an ass of himself. He's being transparent and I have confidence that Kara will see him for what he is. Now if she chooses to remain loyal to him despite the fact that he is a prick and apparently wants her for his harem, then I will just bite my tongue and respect the fact she truly is one of a kind when it comes to loyalty.
Next time on Jerry Springer: Wow. That had to be tough. You know the I never game that we won't speak of? I was so pissed because you saw right through to my core issue. See, my father adored Peter. Like if he could have found a way to adopt him or sacrificed me to make Peter his, he'd have done it without a second thought. Peter was everything my father wanted me to be and it's strange how it turned out to be his golden boy that took him out. I sometimes wonder if the reason I wanted Peter so bad was so my father couldn't have him. You and I should book a family issues tour of talk shows to go with our book tour.
Well, I think life has a sick sense of humor, man. I mean, I'm guessing you never saw either of them as a mother figure, but hey if you did I've heard of stranger things. It seems like maybe genetics came into play on both sides if that makes sense. I'm guessing you are at least somewhat like both of your fathers, one who raised you aka nurture and the other who is bound to you by genetics, aka nature. It would make sense that you would be attracted to the same type of woman they would be attracted too and if you possess certain qualities they have, then it makes sense that the woman or in your case women would be attracted to you as well.
You know the how it goes. They say boys are looking for a girl just like mom and girls want a guy just like dad. I don't know if that is true, but now you have me trying to remember my mother and debating how much she is like the people I've been attracted too. Thanks a lot, dude.
Mine: I just had this talk with Kara. I'm an only child and hopelessly spoiled. I don't share well with others, but I do believe in pampering the object of my affection or you know my friends.
Money for nothing (hah): I will bring it up to her. She's sixteen so I'm sure the mature thing for me to do would be to put her share in a trust. I don't know. I don't like the idea of treating my girlfriend like a child. Yes, I know I just left myself wide open for a variety of remarks. Have at it.
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I’ll keep that in mind. Maybe the other guys and I should work out a schedule so we don’t crash into each other when we break in your penthouse.
Destiny: is only good for ruining your life. Trust me. I ended up in a hell dimension because a friend of Angel’s thought he’d save me from some stupid prophecy that said Angel would kill me. Turned out a demon named Sahjahn faked that one because there was that other prophecy which said I would kill him (Sahjahn, not Angel). And the kicker? Both became true anyway, but they wouldn’t have if the first guy would have just left well enough alone. So screw what other versions of you did in other dimensions. You don’t have to do the same thing. (How reliable is that Mike person as a source of information anyway? I don’t trust doppelgangers as a rule. My family has a really bad history of those, especially when they’re the Jekyll & Hyde variation in the same body.) Seems to me you already chose a different path by not killing Peter. There is no reason why you shouldn’t be able to continue to do that - make your own choices.
Green Goblin stuff: I suck at chemistry, too, but I know you don’t leave tools to become super powerful to Wolfram and Hart. I think you’re dead on, they’d just use it to create their own version. They’re always on the look out for obedient superpowered tools. Can’t you fill the lab with concrete on your own, though? Though that doesn’t help with the part where this is your father’s heritage, I suppose. Perhaps this is totally crazy, but how about this: if he’s really around as a ghost or actually comes back from the dead, than you don’t need the stuff as a reminder. You’ve got the man himself. To talk back to or make up with or reject or whatever, but he’s the point, not the green goo drug.
Kara: is living with two monsters right now, and loves at least one of them. I’m not joking or venting my parents issues. No matter how many people your dad killed, mine had several centuries time to perfect the art. And my mother had two centuries more. I’m not talking about needing blood for nourishment, either; I mean they really liked to torture and kill. When I said they ruined my other father’s life, I didn’t mean they sicced the taxman on him. They killed his wife and children, just for kicks, and that’s putting it mildly. I grew up hearing every fucking detail. But. They changed. And if Kara can see the people they are now, and accept them, and love as I said at least one of them, do you really think that what some stranger says some alternate version of you did in another dimension will change how she feels about you, who hasn’t done anything to begin with? Just tell her, man. You’ll see.
About the other thing. In one version of my life, I never had any friends. I had people who loved me, and people whom I loved, but that’s not the same thing. In the other, I had friends, but they weren’t real - I’ve tried to keep them after regaining the true memories, but it didn’t work out. Too many things I couldn’t say to them, and sometimes they freaked out even when I didn’t say anything, over stuff I did. So condition A applies again, and - I’d like to change that. Not to go all emo on you, as Kara would put it, but I think I need a friend as much as you do. Though for the record and as an advance warning, I’m not exactly the poster boy for sanity. I didn’t have centuries, but I’ve done things. As in: killed, and not for self-defense or to rescue people, either. I messed up so badly, and I’m still trying to find out a way to make up for it, hence, in part, the detective gig. Because that get-out-of-jail-free card Kara referred to on the flight just isn’t enough.
Hoping the same thing,
Connor
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Scheduling: I'd tell you to call ahead so we can arrange a meeting to work out who can stalk me when, but that would take the surprise out of it. Personally I hope you all show up on the same night and have to fight it out. It will make me feel wanted and I promise I'll be hoping that you win. Unless Kara arrives too and then I will be hoping she kicks your ass.
Dimensional doubles are a bitch: Mike seemed to know what he was talking about. He knew about Peter and my father and details about me that most people wouldn't be able to know. I think we all change destiny with every choice we make. If we choose to go right instead of left it does make a difference. how big of a difference who knows, but a difference none the less. I know that I can't allow myself to self destruct the way the other dimensions versions of me did, but I also know that I excel at self destruction.
Goblin stuff: I need to get rid of it, but I have to figure out the best way. Concrete could very well be the best method, but I've never had to concrete a wall before and it's not exactly a project I can trust contractors to come in on.
Kara: We've discussed it and she's been amazing about it actually. Her only concern is that I don't die on her and as I have no intention of testing the drugs on myself that shouldn't be a problem. Of course I didn't point out that I can't guarantee to not die by other methods.
Friendship: Sounds like your family tree is pretty interesting. I'm not going to judge you for the things you've done, Connor. I've got things in my past that I'm not proud of either. No, I didn't kill someone, but I could have and there are times I still wish I had. That I wish I could have done that for my father because maybe it would give him peace. I'm not him and you're not your parents. They may have the colorful past and leave us big shoes to follow, but personally I think we're better off not worrying so much about becoming like them and just learning to be comfortable in our own skin.
I say this fully realizing that it's easier said than done. I think one of the reasons I feel like I can say whatever to you is that you may be the one person, outside of Kara, who gets what I mean and for entirely different reasons than she does. Kara loves without condition and accepts people for who they are. It's something I admire about her and hope to someday learn to do as well.
I think the trick is maybe learning to stop hating ourselves first. I don't know. We can ask Jerry Springer or Dr. Phil on our tour.
Basically this is me saying yeah we're friends.
Harry.
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