I JUST WANNA DIE!
So I was looking on my Myspace thing and happend to see this thing Curt filled out and of course I read it.
And on question #48 it said and his response.....
DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:Im thinking no because its really hard right now and its just too far.
Ask me THIS question... Why in the world did he ask me out if he thinks it's not gonna work out? I just don't get it!
I know i've done somthing wrong to think this I know I have, so im gonna try my best, no im not gonna try im just gonna DO IT.
I REALLY REALLY want this relationsip to work out, it's not just another guy I like, it's somone I care about as much as my family and that's ALOT.
I don't even know why he said it but I know im gonna ask him about it tonight because I really wanna know.
And what I say below is how I feel about our relationship.
Here is a question and my response.....
Are you happy with where you are?
Yes, because i've never had any boyfriend quite like him, he defanitly knows how to treat a girl, he try's his best to be there for me, tell's me he misses me, wants to give me his teddy hugs " which I really love".
I don't think there is ONE thing I dislike about him.. ok so there is one but it's not hating on him. Just that I feel like he doesn't think it's gonna work out. If you REALLY want somthing to work out you'll make it work.
No, just because it's long distance but if it's ment to be then it's ment if not then it's not. I get jelous over EVERY little thing and say stupid things that I regret saying. I get moody out of no were and no reason.
I honestly think I make it worse and I feel like I change his mind on being with me or if it's even worth being in the relationship.
So I need to get over myself and be happy and realize he's not gonna be just another asshole, lieing, cheating boyfriend.
Guess you could say it's past boyfriends who made me feel like im a nothing.
I just WISH for ONCE somthing would go right in my relationships but there's always that ONE little thing that makes it...all...go...wrong.
I don't even know what to think anymore, all I know is that I want this to work out between us he's such a great guy and has the BEST personality in the world!
He makes me feel really good about myself and makes me think positive.
I just wish I could say that about myself...but im gonna change that im gonna start being positive and THINKING it!
Go to College get my degree and live life to the fullest.. that is my goal and im sticking to it.
And to keep my relatiomship strong with the one person I care about the most :)
I really hope he thinks im being serious and not just saying this so he won't break it off with me. Because I am.
I don't think anyone really realizes how much I care about Curt... the only person I think does is Sydney and I thank her soo much for all her help.
I just wish he only knew, but the only thing I can give to him right now is my heart... and that is what im giving him :)
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And on question #48 it said and his response.....
DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:Im thinking no because its really hard right now and its just too far.
Ask me THIS question... Why in the world did he ask me out if he thinks it's not gonna work out? I just don't get it!
I know i've done somthing wrong to think this I know I have, so im gonna try my best, no im not gonna try im just gonna DO IT.
I REALLY REALLY want this relationsip to work out, it's not just another guy I like, it's somone I care about as much as my family and that's ALOT.
I don't even know why he said it but I know im gonna ask him about it tonight because I really wanna know.
And what I say below is how I feel about our relationship.
Here is a question and my response.....
Are you happy with where you are?
Yes, because i've never had any boyfriend quite like him, he defanitly knows how to treat a girl, he try's his best to be there for me, tell's me he misses me, wants to give me his teddy hugs " which I really love".
I don't think there is ONE thing I dislike about him.. ok so there is one but it's not hating on him. Just that I feel like he doesn't think it's gonna work out. If you REALLY want somthing to work out you'll make it work.
No, just because it's long distance but if it's ment to be then it's ment if not then it's not. I get jelous over EVERY little thing and say stupid things that I regret saying. I get moody out of no were and no reason.
I honestly think I make it worse and I feel like I change his mind on being with me or if it's even worth being in the relationship.
So I need to get over myself and be happy and realize he's not gonna be just another asshole, lieing, cheating boyfriend.
Guess you could say it's past boyfriends who made me feel like im a nothing.
I just WISH for ONCE somthing would go right in my relationships but there's always that ONE little thing that makes it...all...go...wrong.
I don't even know what to think anymore, all I know is that I want this to work out between us he's such a great guy and has the BEST personality in the world!
He makes me feel really good about myself and makes me think positive.
I just wish I could say that about myself...but im gonna change that im gonna start being positive and THINKING it!
Go to College get my degree and live life to the fullest.. that is my goal and im sticking to it.
And to keep my relatiomship strong with the one person I care about the most :)
I really hope he thinks im being serious and not just saying this so he won't break it off with me. Because I am.
I don't think anyone really realizes how much I care about Curt... the only person I think does is Sydney and I thank her soo much for all her help.
I just wish he only knew, but the only thing I can give to him right now is my heart... and that is what im giving him :)
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