last one for tonight
Okay. So she just left. Poor thing, she's so exhausted from the move and she has to get up really early tomorrow morning. We had a talk. I cried a lot. She even cried a little, which says a lot because she has really great control of her tears.
I told her basically everything I wrote before. I was right, partially. She doesn't want us to get too serious yet. She is afraid, because of what happened with her last girlfriend, who turned freakish and super needy and selfish and... She says she knows I would never be like that, but she's just not ready to get too serious yet. That's where she cried a little. She's just not ready. There was a lot of long silences, but I told her that she can have all the time in the world, I just need to know that there's at least a chance that it will last, that she isn't just doing this until it's not fun anymore and then she'll just leave me. She actually laughed at that. She said there's no way she could ever hurt me on purpose. She kept saying that she doesn't want me to be sad because of her. So for now, things are okay. She kept telling me how wonderful I am too. How she wants me to be happy. There were a few awkward silences where we were both waiting for the other one to say we should just break up, but it didn't happen. We're okay. Everything is okay.
So I'm off to... um... Do something. Probly watch TV I guess.
I told her basically everything I wrote before. I was right, partially. She doesn't want us to get too serious yet. She is afraid, because of what happened with her last girlfriend, who turned freakish and super needy and selfish and... She says she knows I would never be like that, but she's just not ready to get too serious yet. That's where she cried a little. She's just not ready. There was a lot of long silences, but I told her that she can have all the time in the world, I just need to know that there's at least a chance that it will last, that she isn't just doing this until it's not fun anymore and then she'll just leave me. She actually laughed at that. She said there's no way she could ever hurt me on purpose. She kept saying that she doesn't want me to be sad because of her. So for now, things are okay. She kept telling me how wonderful I am too. How she wants me to be happy. There were a few awkward silences where we were both waiting for the other one to say we should just break up, but it didn't happen. We're okay. Everything is okay.
So I'm off to... um... Do something. Probly watch TV I guess.