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i got a new car. it is big. i named it moby. after the technological musician. although it is big and white. it's kind of sad to let go of my wagovan but i think i'm over it. anyway yeah deja vu happens when you see the future in a dream, no one can convince me otherwise. it's insane! something happened a few weeks ago that i specifically remember from a dream, the place the lighting the feelings the sights, it was a very vivid dream, and then it fucking happened! and when it was happening i knew what i was going to think next, and completely remembered dreaming it, and waking up remembering the dream, and going over it in my head. so crazy. anyway i just drove down to portland because joey's birthday is on friday and we are leaving for the beach tomorrow morning to camp for a few days. i'm really excited about that. summer is just about over, i move to portland on the 12th and then to eugene hopefully on the 17th. my dad bought a boat. i've been messing with ableton a lot lately (a.k.a making "music") which has been fun. I might buy a cornet on the way back home. i just really need a horn. joey is on his computer finishing a mix that he has been making for me and obsessing about. and i'm on this thing. i smell bad. so yeah joey and i are going to the beach, and so far margot and taylor are coming along as well. meg got home early so joey has been trying to get ahold of her really hard but he hasn't yet, hopefully he can tomorrow because if meg came, wow. yeah. plus, margot and taylor are practically engaged, like, their statuses on facebook are both engaged to [name of other and vice versa]. so, as if joey and i don't seem like enough of a homosexual couple, we can go camping at the coast with a serious couple. haha. today was a productive day. i said goodbye to my mom, she leaves back to iowa on friday. that was pretty sad. it was nice we were hugging, and i realized that she is a really great person, and a really nice mom, and i respect her for the most part, you know? i guess i never really thought about those things for the sake of thinking about them. which is weird. but it was a nice time to think about that. she didn't finish ironman this year because she missed the time cutoff for the bike course, which was utterly devastating. her dissapointment was unreal. very very intense. and i can't wait to see her finish it next year, she's all signed up. watching that event was really beneficial. i cant really put it into words, how it made me feel. at least not yet. i guess inspired, emotional, proud, but all of those words are wrong. the bracelet abby made me a little over a year ago finally gave up :( it makes me sad not seeing it on my wrist anymore, or not having to worry about it getting wet when i wash my hands at work. i want to see my dog again soon. and i want to go to bellingham again before i leave. this made no sense.