Sex Changes Everything.
I need to learn how to think before I act.
Today was a wee bit drama filled at lunch.
But I meant what I said; about how i think it's really messed up that you went to him, even after I told you not to.
I haven't even come close to going up to her &; spilling the beans.. which would fuck you over.
[Ps, I've got nothing to lose anymore, I've told who I need to tell.]
Goddfsajklj, you suck. But I also seriously suck at being mad at you.
I need to learn how to be &; stay mad at you.
And not let your "fake stupid-ness of your surroundings" to go on.
I really don't know what's best for us anymore.
Part of me still wants to have you in my life.
Another part is slowly just wanting you to disappear.
dsfajofafjawofjawrafjaew.
I also need to learn how to not lead guys on.
For'real, it's bad.
I'm gonna have relationship problems when I'm out of high school.
It's gonna suck.
I probably shouldn't have skipped anatomy today.
But Thank God for Julie.
She saveded me today :] I love that girl.
She's gonna be my little sister :]
Mmm, I'm excited for Friday / this weekend.
I'm going to see the Percussion boys' S&;E, then head over to the Winterfest with all of 'em.
It's gonna be funfunfunn, I love my Pit boys <3 :]
Saturday I signed up for the ACTS, but I may not take them.
I'm supposed to go to the beach with Evin &; Alina, that'll be fun!
Youth Group on Sunday, woop.
Random ...
Senioritis definently got the best of me today.
I have lots of homework tonight.
Lots of make-up work, too.
I got out of work early, but haven't even started.
I had a little conversation through Texts with SCG today,
for the first time since September.
One of the only times that texting someone by accident actually did good.
And it's a little surprising it worked out with him. Bahah.
lalala.
Life's gonna get better.
I know it.
I'm gonna shape it up.
Starting now.
ps - I do believe now that every single entry on this page has somehow related to "boy." - starting way back in September, after me and SCG ended.