My angel 9b/???
Abby was sitting on a futon that she would throw away later on. She was looking at Gibbs who was sipping on a coffee mug. They hadn't exchange a word in a while now, they were just observing one another.
Gibbs was acting as though if he were to look somewhere else, Abby would vanish into thin air. As for Abby, she didn't look elsewhere because like him, she thought if she would look in another direction everything would disappear.
Fornell's words spooked in Abby's mind. Don't tell anyone, Don't tell anyone, Don't tell anyone, but she had broken that promise already, sure she hadn't tell anyone, not even Gibbs, but he knew she was alive and refused to let her go back.
The question was what step did she have to set next? Telling Gibbs everything or keep him in the dark. Or he could still figure it out on his own. That would just be perfect - she would not break her promise any further. And most of the time when Gibbs knew things he wasn't supposed to know, everything went smoothly
Please Gibbs figure out the truth, please figure it out without me having to tell you anything, please do so. She thought pretty hard hopping that somehow they'd be connected by brain and that he would just be able to read her mind.
Gibbs opened his mouth to say something then, but closed it again as he heard some footsteps in his house. Abby's eyes widened and Gibbs could read the fear in them. Gibbs stood up and told her in sign language not to move from her spot, and that he would come back down as soon as he got whoever it was upstairs to leave. Gibbs hurried up the stairs, preventing the person that had entered his house to come down to look for him into his basement like most of the people did who knew him.
As he was standing on the top step of the staircase, Leroy Jethro turned and to look down at her so beautiful face one more time, a small smile appearing on his lips.
"Boss, you there?" They heard a familiar voice call after him.
Sadness covered Abby's face in a instant as she made Gibbs promise to keep their secret safe in ASL. Gibbs signed back at her not to worry that he wouldn’t tell anything as long as she didn't give him permission to do so.
Gibbs left the door ajar as he went in search for his agent.
"Yeah, I'm here, DiNozzo." She could hear him say to Tony.
Abby stood there alone and silent in the basement, listening to the conversation between her boss and her 'big brother' as she loved to call him. Hey eyes brimmed with tears as she heard Tony mention the four leaf clover time they had had, so much fun that day both of them, and they had taken lots of pictures and one of those she had had framed and she had placed in the fridge with the letter he had written to her that day. Abby had placed it there because she didn't want everyone to see it, not that anyone didn't know who close they were but what happened between them didn't always have to be shared with the world.
Tony sat in Gibbs's living-room couch looking extremely sad and overly stressed, and Gibbs noticed that he had been crying. And he seemed so nervous. Gibbs was surprised to see his younger agent like this. He normally wouldn't have done it because they were still on duty, but Tony seemed like he could use some alcohol.
He went to get two glasses, then poured some amber colored liquid in them. Gibbs put the bottle back in its place then took the two glasses and handed one to Tony, telling him to take a sip as he himself sat on the couch next to him.
"I want that bastard Gibbs, I want him, and preferably dead." Tony told his boss after he had taken a sip of the amber liquid.
"I know, Tony, I know, I want the same thing," he said pensively.
"I feel so empty now, as if I'm constantly missing something. I feel as if someone has killed my baby sister, Gibbs, and it hurts so damn much."
"I know the feeling, Tony, ..." Gibbs answered without thinking.
Tony, who was looking down in the glass he was holding in his hand, looked at him, skeptically.
"Are you telling me you were seeing Abby like a sister or daughter even?"
Tony didn't get any answer to his question, Gibbs was stubbornly looking elsewhere.
In the basement, Abby at let herself fallen to the ground, heart-broken by the fact she had broken her big brother's heart, but also because Gibbs hadn't answered his questions.
Had she dreamed all this? Wasn't he loving her at all?
"Come on Gibbs, you might make McGee believe it, but not me, I've seen the way you looked at her sometimes, I see the way she was making you smile by just saying something, your face lit up when you came down to her lab. I might look silly or stupid on the outside, but that is not exactly what I am on the inside, Gibbs." DiNozzo said, solemnly
"I know that, Tony, I know."
"She told me to tell you, in case the worst happen, that she was in love with you." he said in a broken voice. And added, "Damn Gibbs, why aren't you out there searching for answers to find the bastard to put him behind bars or even kill him. I wouldn’t blame you and I wouldn't tell anyone either,” Tony yelled, his eyes full of tears, bringing his glass his lips he swallowed down the last of the alcohol that was in it.
Tony was ready to walk away when Gibbs stopped him by the simple mention of his name.
His agent stopped and turned to face his boss.
"You wanna know why? I'm gonna tell you why."
All Tony did was eyeing his boss as tears ran down his cheeks, not even carrying about showing his chagrin.
"Losing Abby has broken me, DiNozzo, I'm pissed at myself since it happened, I keep telling myself I'm responsible for what's happened, I should have seen it coming, I should have insisted that Abby didn't need an assistant to help her in the lab, but I didn't. I let the Director have her will, and now Abby's dead. She died because of me. She died before I was able to tell her that I was in love with her. And all that because I was too damn scared of what I felt and still feel for her. I love her so much it hurts DiNozzo, I feel as if someone has ripped my heart out of my chest for the second time... " His voice trailed off.
"I'm sorry, boss." Tony said, moving closer to him again.
"I was afraid that if in case I'd lost her, but now I lost her anyway... If you ever fall in love, tell that woman you love her every day." This time it was Gibbs's voice that broke, and Tony did what he would have done with any other member of the team. He hugged his boss.
Beneath them, Abby cured herself for what she's put her friends through, but she also cursed herself for being so smart and curious. If she hadn't figured things out, they wouldn’t be in that situation. On the other hand if she hadn't, they might be all dead by now except for Tony who'd would lived longer because he'd be in prison waiting for his execution for the murder of his colleagues.
Abby promised herself that when all this was over she would tell her friends how much she love them every day and would definitely show Gibbs how much she loves him every day for the rest of her life.
TBC...