My angel 9a /???
Author: AbbyGibbs
Disclaimer: Well, I do not own them and that is pretty unfair - they again belong to DPB! Why does he always have to own the best shows and the best characters? Could someone explain that to me? His characters are always suffering too much. So I have decided to borrow them for a little while, the length of a story, but I promise to give them back though I really wish I could keep them for myself.
Classification: Abby/Gibbs stuff. Angst, tragedy. Romance.
Rating: T (+13 as always to be on the safe side, isn’t it?)
Spoilers: “Framed Up”, season 3
Summary: What would have happened if Sheppard hadn’t brought that folder in time? What if Chip had hurt Abby?
A/N: Well nobody seemed to wonder about what Tony saw that made him walk out of Abby's lab, leaving Ziva and McGee do the rest of the work. Those of you who want answers will have them in further chapters I promise, but you'll have to keep reading for that.
And yes, I know, Gibbs hasn't told Abby he loves yet and that Tony suffers a lots, but there are reasons for it.
Thanks to all those who have commented the chapters and favorite the story up until now, Thanks also for those who have put the story on story alert too, I hope you’ll keep doing so 'til the story is finished, those who dropped off the train because they thought I really had kill Abby too bad, I can’t stop them, just disappointed a bit that they didn’t trust me enough to see where I was going with this.
Thanks, figi29 as always for your incredible support and faith you have in me. I’d also like to thank ncis_love , chirugal you are such amazing friends to me
And now, back to the story!
PREVIOUSLY ON MY ANGEL
Tony was struggling with his feelings, and he was pissed because he couldn’t compartmentalize his emotions and couldn't handle the case like it would have been any others, he couldn't detach himself from it and to be honest that’s what he wished he could do so he would feel less pain.
Tony passed the fridge absently, took a quick look, and walked further, but took a few steps back and almost dropped the evidence bags he was holding in his hands. He stopped dead and stared at something that was in the fridge.
"I can't do this, I just can't." He said, walked over to McGee, handed him over the bags and walked out of the lab.
Timothy looked at Ziva, who was also looking at him, stunned by DiNozzo's reaction.
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I really can't do this anymore. This is too hard to deal with. Why don't they ever teach us how to deal with the loss of a friend or a colleague? It hadn't been easy losing Kate, but with Abby it seemed to hurt so much more. He could confide in her and she wouldn't judge him. She would tell him sometimes that he should be more careful or tease him, but that's all, he knew that she loved him as a friend, a brother even and that she would always be there for him
Always, a word that sounded so stupid and unreal to him right now; always is a utopia and meaningless word in reality. Always don't exist; one can't say he or she will always be there because it's impossible because nobody's eternal.
Problem is one would like to live alone sometimes, have nobody to care about so when they die we wouldn't care and wouldn't be hurt, but doing that isn't a valuable solution either because then you'd end up depressed because all you'd do then is think about what you don't have, no one to share anything with, to love or to hug or to tease.
Conclusion: it's better to feel and being hurt than not to feel at all.
Abby what am I suppose to do now? How am I supposed to keep going forward without my best friend?
Tony needed some fresh air or he would go insane that he was sure of it. Why the hell did Sheppard bring Chip in anyway? If she hadn't Abby wouldn't be dead by now. Being a director didn't mean you were able to make the right decisions.
DiNozzo knew that bashing wasn't a good thing to do, but he needed to do something, to blame someone, but right now he couldn't do otherwise. He took the elevator and then exited the building without talking to anyone.
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Ziva stood up wordlessly and went to the spot where Tony had been standing on, a couple of moments before; she wanted to know why he had walked out of the lab. She turned to face the fridge, but she didn't quite see anything that would have cause her partner in crime to have such a reaction
She took a step closer and that caused her eyes to widen. Ziva let out a sigh. McGee who was still at his spot collecting the evidence looked up at her intake of breath. Frowning as he saw her standing as if she was suddenly glued to the ground she was standing on. Tim stood up then, careful not to hit anything of the stuff he hadn't bagged and tagged yet. He walked over to where she was and looked at what she was staring it.
He sighed heavily, as he felt his heart tighten.
He had always known Tony and Abby were close friends, but he never thought that Abby considered him as her big brother. Now McGee could understand a bit better why Tony's reactions have been so vivid since Abby's dead.
In the spot their eyes were like glued on now, was a picture frame, showing them laughing as if they were seeing the most hilarious thing in the world. Tony's right arm was resting on her shoulders and Abby had her arms encircling his waist, her head leaning forward as she was laughing so hard.
It was a picture neither Tim nor Ziva had ever seen before. Apparently Tony didn't tell everything about his life as the two agents thought he did. Next to the frame was another frame, in which a piece of paper was framed in. Both of them could easily decipher Tony''s hand writing.
I'll always be your big bother and I'll always protect you.
Whenever something goes wrong you can always count on me
Yeah, I know you'll come to me when Gibbs can't help you.
Gibbs you love so much, but will never tell anyone, not even him.
You should though, I'm sure loves you too.
Thank you so much, Abbs for seeing past that mask
I put on to protect myself. Thanks so much for being there
For me, Thanks for being you, promise me to never change.
Love from your big brother, Tony
Something more was added to the small letter of Tony in the frame. A four-leaf clover decorated the lower right corner of the paper the words were written on.
After a moment, McGee looked at Ziva.
"Did you know they were so close?"
"Well, I've always thought they were close, but not that close. All the team is -- was -- fond of Abby, but I never thought they shared such a deep bound."
"Me neither." McGee remarked sadly.
Ziva saw the shadow of sadness in McGee's blue eyes and added. "Tim, Tony and Abby knew one another a long time before you joined the team.” And she placed a hand on his shoulder in sympathy.
"I know, but I thought Abby and I were close, you know we've had something together."
"McGee, I'm not sure jealousy has its place right know. And I know Tony drives you nuts and teases you most of the time, but he's really not good, right now. And we have to focus to find the person who did this to her. Nothing else matters."
"Did you know about her feelings for Gibbs?"
At McGee's question Ziva sighed, slightly exasperated by her colleague.
"Don't tell me you haven't seen it." She told him as if it was really the most obvious thing in the world.
"No I didn't." He said looking at her sincerity shining in his blue eyes.
"I'll have to teach you to read people, someday." She signed.
Looking slightly hurt McGee went back to the task they were at before Tony left the lab.
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