my weakness is that i care too much
i tear my heart open i sew myself shut my weakness is that i care too much the scars remind me that the past is real i tear my heart open just to feel ...
why is that i'm always trying so hard to get what i want and i finally think i have a chance and of course nothing happens?! i don't understand what the hell is wrong with me or what i'm doing wrong! mabee it's the other person i don't know - but right now it just as hell seems like it's me considering every guy i've ever liked or talked to something has always gone wrong! i don't get it! i'm so confused - i don't know whether to cry my eyes out or to scream at the top of my lungs! this whole situation is driving me nuts and it shouldn't be - i think way too much i've been told - but ya kno what? when u really truly want something it's hard not to think alot about it -- there's only been one guy - even when i've had other relationships it's always come down to him! he's been the one i've always cared about but something has always been in the way - and now that there's nothing in the way - nothing is happening! this whole situation is sooooo messed up and i hate every second of it! i wish i could just give up and not think about it but i can't help it - it's definitely not that easy - people tell me i can do better and that i don't deserve to be treated like this and that i shouldn't have to worry about it but i am worrying, don't wanna do better, and can't help but be treated like this! it's driving me insane! every song i hear or when people talk to me about their problems i can't help but relate it back to this - now this may sound like i'm being obsessed and exaggerating this whole situation but i can't help it when i've wanted something to happen for sooooo long! - i hate this feeling ... :(
**i just wanna know what it would be like** :-/
people need to start being completely open with their feelings and lay it all out on the table so that there's no leading on, there's no getting no where, there's no one person trying and the other person not ...
i can't deal with this - i'm going to bed - goodnight ... :(
why is that i'm always trying so hard to get what i want and i finally think i have a chance and of course nothing happens?! i don't understand what the hell is wrong with me or what i'm doing wrong! mabee it's the other person i don't know - but right now it just as hell seems like it's me considering every guy i've ever liked or talked to something has always gone wrong! i don't get it! i'm so confused - i don't know whether to cry my eyes out or to scream at the top of my lungs! this whole situation is driving me nuts and it shouldn't be - i think way too much i've been told - but ya kno what? when u really truly want something it's hard not to think alot about it -- there's only been one guy - even when i've had other relationships it's always come down to him! he's been the one i've always cared about but something has always been in the way - and now that there's nothing in the way - nothing is happening! this whole situation is sooooo messed up and i hate every second of it! i wish i could just give up and not think about it but i can't help it - it's definitely not that easy - people tell me i can do better and that i don't deserve to be treated like this and that i shouldn't have to worry about it but i am worrying, don't wanna do better, and can't help but be treated like this! it's driving me insane! every song i hear or when people talk to me about their problems i can't help but relate it back to this - now this may sound like i'm being obsessed and exaggerating this whole situation but i can't help it when i've wanted something to happen for sooooo long! - i hate this feeling ... :(
**i just wanna know what it would be like** :-/
people need to start being completely open with their feelings and lay it all out on the table so that there's no leading on, there's no getting no where, there's no one person trying and the other person not ...
i can't deal with this - i'm going to bed - goodnight ... :(