wow i haven't written in this thing in forever~!!!!!!!
so this journal is really old as you can tell from the last entry which was in JUNE and damn i was kinda mad eh? haha! so the real reason i'm starting this thing back up is for one thing i'm realllly bored and another lindsay says they are "all the rage in michigan" hahaha so decided to take her advice ...
... so it's really hard to think about what to write in these things cuz u don't wanna sound really depressing and u don't wanna sound like ur selfish and u don't wanna say something that u wanna get out without mentioning peoples names cuz u kno they'll figure it out - hmm ... this is difficult ...
i wish everyone could just be completely open and honest all the time! the world would be so much better - honestly then u wouldn't have to sit there and wonder if the person was lieing or holding something back ... then girls wouldn't have to sit around and wonder if that certian guy liked them or whether or not they were being truthful with them or whatever ... and be open - don't hold ne thing back - let urself lay everything out there it makes u feel so much better and then u actually know what's going on in the situation and u don't have to sit there and worry about it ... i hate worrying ....
((live your life without regret))
~i tear my heart open i sew myself shut my weakness is that i care too much my scars remind me that the past is real i tear my heart open just to feel~
*'Do you wanna run away together?'
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along,
Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...
You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart ...
'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes,
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize ...*
... so it's really hard to think about what to write in these things cuz u don't wanna sound really depressing and u don't wanna sound like ur selfish and u don't wanna say something that u wanna get out without mentioning peoples names cuz u kno they'll figure it out - hmm ... this is difficult ...
i wish everyone could just be completely open and honest all the time! the world would be so much better - honestly then u wouldn't have to sit there and wonder if the person was lieing or holding something back ... then girls wouldn't have to sit around and wonder if that certian guy liked them or whether or not they were being truthful with them or whatever ... and be open - don't hold ne thing back - let urself lay everything out there it makes u feel so much better and then u actually know what's going on in the situation and u don't have to sit there and worry about it ... i hate worrying ....
((live your life without regret))
~i tear my heart open i sew myself shut my weakness is that i care too much my scars remind me that the past is real i tear my heart open just to feel~
*'Do you wanna run away together?'
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along,
Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...
You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart ...
'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes,
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize ...*